Something has been bothering me real bad today... I came to realise that you are coming up with ridiculous changes that with one look, I don't see it worth doing.
Once again, I would like to establish that I am not a lazy person (though I say it sometimes, hehe). But this "principle" has been with me since I started work at 17. If the results of doing a certain thing is not worth my effort, then I would rather not do it at all. That simple. The management probably won't understand what we ground staff are going through. I already find it a struggle to keep up with my current work and things that I am assigned to do. Why am I doing more unnecessary work?!
I know, my decision or my opinion does not matter at all, because I am simply a staff nurse. But let this be a reminder to me in the future when I ever become a leader or play a management role. I have often been told that I am a person who is quite resistant to change. But I would rather say that, I don't like other people's idea of that "change". I am not being won over. It is like how my ideas are usually rejected at times. Does that mean the person who rejected my idea is not keen for change?
When I first started out Nursing, I always wanted to have that connection with patients. Am I having that now? What has changed? Can things be like what they used to be like?
I am going to pursue my degree in 4 months' time. Can I still make a positive change in my workplace? Will things become like what they used to be like(in a good way)?
God, help me once again. I need wisdom. I need more of You.
