:(

Last night, I heard from my colleagues that a patient passed on. Well, she's not just a normal patient. She's someone with recurrent cancer in the midst of her pregnancy. The cancer was so aggressive that she needed a cycle of chemo with the baby inside! 2 weeks ago, an induced labour was performed and her child was delivered at 27 weeks. I feel really sad and burdened for her. Well, the funny thing is, I've not met or nursed her before.

This just makes me miss my patients who had passed on :'( Like within a year, a couple of patients that I knew quite well had moved on to the other side. I don't know but I seem to enjoy the process of genuinely knowing them and caring for them in their last days. I do have regrets though, like certain things I didn't manage to do for them.

I would like to continue to share the love. So Maria, go sign up and volunteer in a hospice!

Palliative care... Is that my calling?

1 month

It has been almost a month since I started school... Hmmm, well it's true that I am enjoying all my regular meals, full weekends and regular naps. BUT, something's missing. The feeling of stepping into the ward, checking equipments, having patients greeting me, setting IV plugs, getting pissed off at work and the list just goes on! Hahaha. I think I miss the interaction with my cancer patients the most... Especially my "old customers" :)

For now, I kinda feel meaningless :( I mean the school just whacks us with 2 assignments to complete for a month, with minimum contact time with the lecturers. Yes, the difficulty is there, a lot of time is spent doing work. But on days that I do not have activities and when I just do work, it feels so empty. Hmm, looks like I need to play it well the next term!! Start filling my days with activities yet balance work at the same time!! Maria you can do it!! By the way, I hope that I can PASS my first 2 assignments. Heehee...

I hope the remaining 22 months will be better! I should do the most out of this period of time! MARIA STOP SLEEPING LIKE A PIG! STOP IT!

Okthanksbye.

I'm 25

Yay!! Once again, at a blink of an eye, it's my birthday again!!! So many things to be thankful for :)

First up, 2 weeks of intensive lectures are finished!! I do feel stupid at times. Need to buck up seriously. But yeah, thankful to be given this chance to study and hopefully get my honours. And at the same time, have fun! Which I think I did... Hehe...

Had the lovely RE gang celebrating my birthday! I always feel so paiseh to have such attention. Hehehe. But I'm still happy that I always have this group of friends there for me!!!

Ta dah~~~ They deserve all my love! Muacks!

On my birthday, I got to attend Little Adelle's 1st month party! I love this photo actually, because I am carrying the baby!! :P People just assume that I look after neonates wahahahaha. Ok lor, then I should act confident and just carry the baby! And maybe I am also at the age of being able to be a mother :X But yeah! That's true!

And of course... I could not be happier than to attend dear Theresa's wedding! Looking so pretty!! Yay!! We should TOTALLY meet up this month! :D

My birthday wish remains the same I guess. But I have learnt to always be contented with what I have. Thankful for all who love me so much! :D I shall fight on!