It has been 8 years since I joined nursing.. Wow. Congratulations to myself. I did it!! I stayed on and I'm still bonded until 2022 which will be my 12th year in nursing. Come to think of it, it was a journey full of ups and down. One thing for sure... I have aged and become less energetic and more tired T_T
Today, I was on afternoon shift and super shagged because I only slept for like 2.5 hours on my post night. However, 3 patients separately asked me if I had dinner. So sweet of them! It was nice of them to engage a conversation or check on me... I realise I have sort of stopped being chatty to patients because I'm just too tired to talk to anyone hehe. But maybe I should really talk to them once again, get into their lives, make friends etc! I do feel bad when patients remember me by my name but I only know their face and not their name... Time to get personally connected with them...
One more thing to add... I have been nominated for the nursing merit award thing. I'm not very sure if I will be awarded but if I do, I think I will be happy and make myself work better without complaining? Haha. You see, for the past many years, I have always regarded myself as always coming to work. Hardly taking any sick leave. Sometimes I really find it unfair. Why do my colleagues always take sick leave but me. I'm always coming to work with sometimes super short handed staffing. Whereas colleagues who is down with a tiny flu or cramps or whatever get to rest at home. I somehow do want that rest to :( Everytime my managers give me "extra" work to do, I will always complain- I am already faithfully coming to work every single day. Why must I still stay back and do extra work and all that? Well, I guess if I get this reward then it will be worth it? Maybe this award will affirm my passion in nursing and let me stay on? Still I won't say I'm the best person at work. I make mistakes, I screw up, I get lazy sometimes...
I just hope I can do more for the cancer patients. Time to get my head thinking once again!! God give me wisdom and strength!