Aisah wasnt ready. HAHA.








SiShi and ME!!!!!








I was doing transformation,








still doing,








STILL DOING! (see how much I struggled and pulled through)








Angel and me! Love her to the core :) *thanks for helping me in my studies! it really helped!*



HI-5 is coming to expo! *screams* Yay! I'm gonna buy they're cds like crazy. Hope no one will like stare at me. But there's nothing wrong right? Cos hi-5 started out when I was 9. Oh well, hope those people will understand. Hahahhaa.

Okay, I'm really gonna sleep now...

Most of the papers are done! I don't really feel that stressed as before. In fact, I really enjoyed the exams! Yeah, I should take my exams as enjoying myself! Just hope the results won't terrify me.

How I wish everything can be reaveled. I won't need to know if it is true a not. I want some power to see through everything and everyone! So that I don't have to worry.

20th anniversary is coming! But why must it fall on the 3rd of June?! I dont wanna miss the night session of emerge! I wonder why must the school make this so big? Hmm, we're only moving out what. I don't see other schools doing that. And we use a lot of money lor. Hahaha. But I'm kinda excited what to wear. I love wearing formal stuff. Dont have a chance. (no wedding dinner or whatsoever)

Chinese paper tmr :\ Hope I can maximise my time in it. Heh.. I know a secret though... COPY AND PASTE! The previous time I did it, I passed okay! Was so happy. Oh, have to bring dictionary. SO HEAVY CAN.

Sleep then study...

When somebody loved me

everthing was beatiful

every hour spent together lives within my heart

And when she was sad

I was there to dry her tears

And when she was happy, so was I

when she loved me

Through the summer and the fall

we had each other that was all

just she and I together

like it was meant to be

And when she was lonely

I was there to comfort her

and I knew that she loved me...

And so the years went by

I stayed the same

but she began to drift away

I was left alone

but still I waited for the day

when she'll say, "I will always love you"

Lonely and forgotten

never thought she looked my way

and she smiled at me and held me just like she used to do

Like she loved me, when she loved me

When somebody loved me
everthing was beatiful
every hour spent together lives within my heart

when she loved me......

Touching song isnt it? Well, I'm somehow in this situation. I'm not les lah -.- This song is from toy story 2. This cowgirl doll was abandoned by her onwer. Yeah, sad song...

If I didn't really do well for this exam, please don't blame me. Just so very distracted by the things happening around me. I now realise how important my peers are to me. Not say I'll do very bad lah. But I know it's not the best one. Hope my actual major papers won't have such terrifying situations around me.

Tomorrow it's maths paper 1! I can't live without my calculator! But should be can lah. As long as I have confidence in myself :D As I said, it's not the result you're learning from, it's the process! The process taught me to be persistant and to manage time and energy well.

So how am I coping with my situation? Hmm, now really well. But as each day passes by, I'm feeling better. Time heals. Cool. I hope that this is actually a dream so that I can get out from me. Me and my mouth :\ "I wanna dream"

Oh well, THAT vision burned out. I hope one fine day it will ignite again though. I could feel the burden as you screamed and shouted at us and I very much wanted to ask the people not to talk back to you. Nevermind.

Time to study.

Today had maths and physics! For maths, we went to the hall. Kinda cool. I dropped my water bottle and the whole hall could hear it. Hehehe. Maths was OKIE lah. Hey, it's the 1st time taking exactly the same paper as the express okay. Won't have very promising results though. There were some questions I totally blacked out on. Never seen them my whole life :/ Oh well, this is not the end. I can always try harder! I always learn from the process! Not the result! (recalls studying yesterday for 6 hours...) Hmm, physics was rather easy though. Quite surprised lah. I learnt so much about the thermometer but never come out :/ Generally I'm ok. I feel that I'm actually more prepared than previous times. I shall progress!





Feel so bad being so hostile towards to you. In fact, I really don't want anything to happen to you. Can't bear to see the consequences. But, there's nothing I can do. You can mock at me but I just hope that one day you'll finally know why...

The two issues running through my mind. Why happen during an exam? Learning how to manage my capacity? I hope.

I wanna hide in a corner and cry, "Someone, help me please!"

Back from studying! I have successfully studied for 6 hours! From 2pm-11pm miuns 3 hours cos I had dinner and rested for awhile. But I'm very happy and proud :DD One of the most fruitful studies I've ever had. Thank you w325 :)

However, the thought kept running through my mind.. Why are things like that now? Everyone's right, you have indeed changed. Sometimes I just wanna give up. I really don't know what to do. Why am I so badly affected by it? The happiest moments of my life has become the most disappointing part of my life.
.

So tired. But I can't sleep. When I close my eyes, I begin to imagine the bad things. Save me from this crazy world!

The world is crazy. Everything's so crazy. Why things have to turn out to be so complicated? I don't know what to do. Help you, igrore you or be so angry at you? All these while I have be in a way, cheated.

Notice when anyone asks me about me and the person I quarreled with, I didn't say I was correct. I just told the whole story. So, it's up to you to decide who's in the right or in the wrong.. I didn't say anything. Mock at me for all I care.

Later going to nus to study! Yay. My aim would be studying for 7 hours. Hmm, you think it's enough. I can go around ans ask my cg members for help! Whee. Esp maths... and for no particular reason. I just wanna simply, SHINE LIKE STARS :DD

I hope time passes by quickly and all these would be in the past. The truth is, I can't bear to see you suffer. Could not really sleep. I might be hostile towards you but I'm really worried for you. I don't want anything to happen to you.

Oh well, time to pack my books and make my way to nus! :))