Standby Mode

Rehearsals have been crazy. REALLY CRAZY. I have been going to NYP almost everyday for the past 2 weeks! Phew!! But..... I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT THE SHOW IS TOMORROW ALREADY!!!! Arghhh!! OMGOMGOMG! I feel really nervous. One of the biggest role I have ever played. Even though I'm not played the lead, I enter in 12 scenes out of the 13 scenes!!!! It's really draining!

Anyway I should stop complaining, because I really love what I love doing :) I'm so happy that I have friends supporting me too! (you know who you are) What I really hope for now is to have perfect articulation of lines, good pitching and singing(not straining kind), the right emotions and mood of the various scenes, being very into character and the comfort in engaging the audience during the 2 actual days!

I MUST BREAKTHROUGH AND DO EXTRAORDINARILY WELL! :) They told me that that know I will shine on the actual day. Thanks for the encouragement, but I really hope it will happen :) Grace of God, grace of God!!!

Anyway in between rehearsals, I had some fun because it is also my annual leave period!! Photos to share! :)

Went to Botanical Gardens with the youth peeps! It was really fun just hanging out!!

Random group in church! I love the Christmas decorations!

Some rehearsal photos! Waiting backstage while waiting for our turn!!

The big grand stage!!! Tomorrow I will no longer be seeing empty chairs already!! *stress*

Treasa and I during preview!!

After Saturday's performance, it will be back to reality. But I'm quite happy to return to work! Provided that it is not crazy. My sister never give me PH at all for Christmas and New Year :( Which means I will have 4 "extra" off days brought over next year!!! Good! Good!!

I'm just praying very hard for a good show :) Really.

My Days In NYP

If you were to ask me to act out scene 11 of HomeComing Musical right now, I think I could do it perfectly... I really miss my studying days! Going to the library and cramping all the shitz into my brain and going off for rehearsals during the exam period!

Did almost exactly that today(yesterday). It has been about a year since I last stepped into the library! It was good sitting down and doing the stuff I ought to do.

Even a bunch of Nursing students sat beside my table. They were frantically revising for their skills test(one of the horrors in nursing). It seemed so complicated to them but to me, it's just a simple procedure I do in the ward. Wow, it made me realized that I've grown so much! :)

So, we have been and we are having pretty intensive rehearsals for the big show! For me, I got really tongue twisted. Seriously, why does it ALWAYS happen to me?! Hope it will be better with more practice!

I love spotlights! :) It somehow gives me the confidence! Looking forward to better acting!

I can do it!! I thank God for His grace :)

I'm listening to the instrumental of Rainbow Connection played on the keyboard by one of my SoundCard junior. It really sounds good. Oh man, it's giving me the feeling! COME ON MARIA! You can do it! :) Really at this point of time, it is good to just reflect back and ponder why on Earth I am in this musical. Why??? Hmmm.

I got news that there would be this "Homecoming" musical on the day I watched 881 the musical. Hehe. I told myself back then that I MUST be involved in it because that is the only platform that I can do what I really like. Act, sing, dance. Let the audience feel my emotions. Make them laugh, tear, be in awe. Where I can do quick changing, put on pretty make up, have lights shining on me, seeing myself in programme booklets, posters. Be with the people I love :) 2 weeks to SHOWTIME. GOSHHHH!

As compared to the others I've been through, this musical seems different. In a slightly negative sense of course. Though I must say that the story is one of the best to me, not forgetting the stage settings and the beautiful songs in it. The spirit, feeling might be different. But you know what is gonna stay the same? Shining on stage! Yes! It will be one of the best I've done so far! I don't care!!!

I really can't wait for the moment when I'm on stage the actual day, starting off the whole musical! :)

I thank God for such a timely annual leave (planned by me of course). Been going out since day one! Went to the airport to see dear Sheryne off!! Will miss her for a whole month!!

I have yet to go on a proper shopping trip!!! It's okay! I have many days of leave left!! :)

20 more days

This is no joke. 20 more days till the actual day of the musical! But you know what, I still can't get into character. Like seriously, I don't know why! I know they are not pin-pointing me. They want the best out of me but I have seem to have let them down every single practice. You know what, I have never received any positive feedback on my acting since day 1. So what if I had past experiences? If you act bad, means you act bad. I hate myself sometimes...

I'm getting quite sick and tired of all these. I have never been so stressed about performing before. I really need a breakthrough.

Today in church, everyone is supposed to write down their desires/wishes for Christmas this year. Well, I didn't participate in it but what I really wish deep down in my heart is to be a good actress. This is all that matters to me for now.

I'm really glad that my annual leave is round the corner. I can really have the time to be at home and work on my character and lines. I feel that sometimes being so tired from work hinders me from practicing on my own.

At the end of the musical, I just wanna look back and be so darn proud of myself that I have broken through(if theres such a word).

God, please help me. I want a breakthrough desperately.

Bad To Work Tomorrow!

Woohoo! Had an awesome weekend! I finally had a whole weekend to enjoy after a long time! Yay! I just need to work for another full week and two days before my annual leave!! Finally! Taking a long good break since I started work! But it will be all dedicated to musical rehearsals. Heh. Nevertheless, I'm still gonna make room for shopping. I need to SPEND SPEND SPEND!!!

Last night I attended ShaoYu's 21st birthday celebration! The venue very much reminded me of the parties the girls from Gossip Girl would go. Hehehe. Just didn't have the time and energy to dress glam enough. Heh...

Mighty 4 of us! :D

The NYP Homecoming casts who attended!!!

My darling SiShi :D

The usual bunch of us!! After 4 years we still see each other!!

Woke up today with scenes of me acting in one of the scene of the musical. I think I got the inspiration! So simple! All I had to do was to visualize! I tried practicing at home already, I hope I can portray it really well during the rehearsal tomorrow!! OMG SO SCARY! Less than a month to showtime and we are not even halfway done! :O I need to rely more on God's strength. God, if You have placed me through this, it means You know that I can do it well!! Yes, I will have a breakthrough!!!

I CAN DO IT, YES I CAN!

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One of the days I find out that I cannot work under pressure and with a heavy workload. Sigh. Really shows how incompetent I am :/ Really hope I can improve and work darn well! Buck up Maria, buck up!!!

Photoshoot tomorrow! Gonna be a tiring day! Well, a least JCI is over! To be honest, I kinda teared a little when everyone in the auditorium applauded each other for the hard work. Wow, I feel so belonged in this organisation. Or maybe I was just being extremely emotional. Heh....

Sleep is my best friend :)

JCI and Rehearsals!

Wooooo! It's been a really crazy because I was/am required to work from Monday to Friday mornings this week! It's no joke when you have rehearsals on Monday and Wednesday evenings where I would usually reach home at 12plus and only sleep for a good 4 hours! At least for now I only have one more day to work before my FULL WEEKEND! WAHUHUHUHU!

A lil sneak peek of my character :P

So for the past few days, I've been struggling to memorize my lines. Not only that, trying so, so hard to get into character :/ Sometimes I think I'm a really lousy actress. Can't even pick up different roles. Still, I think I will be darn good in being the ensemble cast for Wicked. HAHAHA! Just that my dancing isn't that fanstastic...

But seriously from then, where will I go? :) Where will this path take me? I'm really excited and I hope I will be given more and more opportunities to perform. Ya, thinking of it already makes me feel so excited!!

Tomorrow will be the end of JCI(audit thingy). Finally, all the preparation we have gone through will be worth it! So far, I have attended 2 of the debriefs by the JCI committee and what I can see really is the great teamwork by all the staff from KK! It's really nice to see all the departments gathering together and cheering each other on! :) ONE MORE DAY! We can do it! :) And of course I hope we will get it because I really want to belong to a hospital with such good standards. Not forgetting the incentives ;)

So yeah!! I'm learning to treasure my sleep more! :)