Updates~

Gosh I can't stop thinking about my exam! Arghhhhh! I seriously don't know what result I will get! Ok, let me imagine the different reactions when the results come out...

Fail: What the #*$&%@... Ok lor. Bo bian. Retake lor! But yay! Not so stressful because it's not grade 8.

Pass: Sigh, I really thought I could have done better BUT YAY! AT LEAST I GOT A CERT! Hmmm, so how now? Move on to grade 8 or take it slowly?

Merit: YESH!!! :DDDD THANK YOU GOD!!! (I would happily post it on fb and tell my teacher as well!) Really by God's grace!!

Distinction: (That's out of the question. So don't bother thinking. HAHAHHAHA).

Before me and my teacher parted the last time, she was like, "Oh, if you really do well we can jump to grade 8. I have scores. You can get them from me. Then after that you can move on to diploma where you would need to write assignments." Erm, like seriously? Am I going to move that far? First, I need to settle on my grade 5 theory before starting any of this. So yeah. I hope the results will come out soon!!

Urgh! I have been having 2 dreams related to the singing exams already! I can't stop thinking about it!! And I kinda miss my teacher too. Hehe. It's been 10 days since I last saw her. I really admire her. If only I could lead her kind of life. Knowing so much music and teaching people... Sometimes I wished I could be more talented and smarter :/ Ok, stop it Maria. You are leading a great life now :)

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Anywaysssss, I'm going to KL with my poly friends next week! Can't wait for this little getaway. I just wanna lie on the bed and chat the whole day. Hehe. I hope to post photos here after the trip!! This blog is seriously getting more and more boring. Zzzzz.

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So, LifeUtd is MOVING!!!! WOOHHOOO! Can't wait for the next time to be awesome!~ Turning 2 in May so it's pretty amazing! God is indeed good :) Easter is round the corner and we've been looking up on the work of the cross and the power of resurrection! I believe that this season I will be transformed and my mind will be renewed! At the same time, the music team will be greater!! Ok, that's pretty random~

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Workwise what am I waiting for? MY BOND ENDS 30TH MARCH FYI. I am waiting for any scholarship oppurtunities. My manager said that there's a chance for me. And I really hope so! At the meantime, let me do really well in work :) I believe God has a way for me! Let Him lead me!

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That's enough updates for now. On top of all I have mentioned, I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY RESULTS! URGH URGH URGH!!!

Nothing To Say

It was a good experience!! But let it stay in my memory :)

ARGHHH! Waiting for the results is killing me!!!

YAY! I can resume eating all my favourite food! ^^

A Milestone

After 10 months on the "express train", I am finally taking my grade 5 singing exam tomorrow! It was always my dream to pursue classical singing since 17 and I'm glad that this dream came true!

This journey was not easy. I had lessons in the morning before my afternoon shift almost every week. It was just so difficult to stand in front of my room's mirror and practice for an hour every other day. That needed a lot of discipline and I'm guilty for not doing it faithfully. Also, learning without any significant music background was hard. BUT I PULLED THROUGH.

Of course I feel very nervous now! But I need to remind myself that I just have to do my best and enjoy that moment in the exam room.

A big thanks to colleagues and friends for being SO encouraging. Not forgetting my teacher who went though this journey with me with much patience and for being my accompanist!

It is just amazing how God can place certain people and situations in my life to make this happen! So, I wanna thank God for His goodness in my life!

Lastly I wanna say that this is not the end. IT'S JUST THE BEGINNING :)

Rantings

This is a blog so I can complain what ever I want.

Yesterday my manager came back from her 3 week leave. I finally got to see her! :O I gave her a hug round her waist(cos i was sitting down). I almost broke down but to avoid embarrassment, I didn't. All the funny or bad stuff that happened in the ward when she wasn't around just came into my mind. She was having a series of meetings and I was quite busy at work yesterday. But if I had the time, I would just wanna sit down and tell her about it.

That just shows how much impact she has on me. Hahaha. She won me over. I can't be bothered if other colleagues were to assume that I am trying to suck up to her(well you may never know). But whatever the case, manager or not, I love her!! Hehe.

And to prove I'm not the sucking up type, I can boldly say here that I am not very fond of the "2nd one". I am trying to be discreet here. I hope no one at work actually reads my blog! Maybe I can't say much here but all I wanna say is that there are some people I can't get along with, and she's one of them.

Then again, I am just lucky to have my current manager as my first boss. I am sure as I move on, the bosses that I encounter won't give me a good time. And that's stopping me from leaving this organisation. Not that I am intending to leave, but if I ever do(maybe there's a 20% chance haha), it will be a painful departure :/

Lesson learnt: As a manager, you need to win your girls' heart! There isn't a need to be strict and anal about certain things. But as along as you build a good relationship, you'll have all of your workers respecting you and keeping the place running in order.

Yeah I totally need that since I am aspiring to be a manager, to run my hospice/nursing home!

Ahhh! She's just so encouraging every time I feel down. Can't wait to meet her again!!

So now I gotta concentrate on my singing exam!!!!! I have 5 more days to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One More Week!

10 days to be exact to my singing exam! I can feel the jitters! Hope the results will be good! I don't wanna go through these 10 months for nothing.

I'm gonna prove myself and everyone else wrong this time!

A bit of everything

I shall start this post with a photo of Juiczy Steamboat!!!! :DDD

Love these people! Had so much fun just sitting down, eating and figuring out how to prepare and cook the food. Oops. So that was how I spent my chu san!!!

I won't know what else to talk about but singing~ On Valentine's Day, my teacher organised an "exchange session" with all her own students. I think all 4 were supposed to come but only 2 of us could make it. Oh well... It was fun though, just listening to the other student and seeing where I stand. It was nerve wrecking to stand in front of a musician(she plays the piano, should be a very high grade)and sing. Heh. My breathe control sucked. Buck up Maria!!!

The next day I went to book the exact studio of my exam venue for practice. I got a slot THE DAY before the exam. I don't know if it's a good thing or not. But after peeping into the room, I have kinda prepared myself mentally but I still feel very nervous :S I keep reminding myself that if God has brought me to it, He will bring my through it!!

So, for those who have seen me recently, I have been in a "serious mood". Practicing often, avoiding fried or spicy food, not going out and not singing for other stuff. Please excuse me until after 7th March! :D

At the meantime, I have also been brooding over my future... My bond is finishing in about one and a half months. So many things I wanna do and so many options I have. Haish. I really hope whatever I encounter is by God and whatever decision I make is along His purpose for me.

Purpose, is that little flame that lights a fire under your ass
Purpose, it keeps you going strong like a car with a full tank of gas
Everyone else has a purpose, so what's mine?????

Happy CNY!

It's the time of the year once again! I don't know why but I feel SUPER BORED this year. Been lazing at home most of the time. My relatives just come and go, within a span of 3 hours? :/ At least, I have later to look forward to!! Juicez peeps are coming to my place for steamboat after much begging! I will have fun! WOOHOO!

A simple photo with my parents :)

I think I have been doing well so far. Other than eating about 3 pieces of popcorn chicken, I did not touch anything fried and spicy!! Woohoo! And I kinda lost my voice a few days back. It's coming back now. Yay!! Gonna practice singing first thing I wake up in the morning! :D

At the meantime I have been figuring out sight singing before I sleep every night. I hope I can get better... I have enough of my teacher "scolding" me every time. It's time to show her that I'm really serious and trying very hard!

Valentine's Day is coming up and I'm so happy that I'm gonna have a 1hr15min session with my teacher that evening! Really spending that with something I love :') #foreveralone