The Weekend

Hello!! Sorry for not posting for so long.... Blogger didn't allow me to post photos. But anyway, I'm back! Heehee. Ok, sorry, some self-obession here. Hehe. On Saturday, celebrated Aunt Mei's birthday! Isn't it cool? 2 layered cake! Yummy, the flavor on top is martini with something and the flavor below is chocolate orange.Me and the newly weds. (Just kidding)

Beloved Aunt Mei :)The next day, Sunday, went to YouPeng's house to celebrate her 19th birthday!!! Had steamboat! Yummy!The funny marsmellow cake WanTing baked. We were all blunt with our comments :PUS!!! :D Sorry, had to leave early, but it was great seeing you all!Then, I had to make my way to meet Bernice at YCK to proceed to watch 'The Musical'!!! And guess what we saw in the train..Yup, a pigeon in the train!!!! It left some fecal material or urine on the floor. But I wonder why did the train service staff didn't fine the pigeon -__-The musical was awesome!!! Shikin was like WOW!! Though I enjoyed myself, I was feeling a little nostalgic on how much I have been though that made me wanna withdraw from the ensemble :( Oh well, it's over now!!!Shikin with her "Dancing Queen" costume!!

The flowers we bought for her :)Then, we camwhored in the toilet...

Syuhada... We were friends then, but not NOW!!That explains why I am so tired this week... Other than going out and all that, projects, studies and performance were flooding my mind! At least for now, it's kinda over. I hope to have more time at home to do some serious studying!!

Today marks the day that I can eat fastfood after one month. How did it feel? Hmmm, while waiting for the staff to place the food on my tray, there was a white flag waving in my head with the "devil" staring right at me. It mentioned, "You need me!" After eating, I actually didn't feel any sastisfaction. Hmmmm. Strange. Hahaha. Well, I think it is the process but not the finish line that affects and changes my behavior.

Ok, enough crapping... Time to get into the lab to practice my BCLS skills!!!

Blogger is argh!

Something is wrong with blogger! I can't do up a nice post with such a deviated format here...

Stay tuned ok! A lot has been happening throughout the week :)

What a week!

Highlights of the week: Musical Lunchtime Performance @ NYP... Thanks to Cass for taking such great shots! Kinda first time close up shots are taken of me while performing. Hehehee. The classic faint :POk, dress is too plain! Was shopping for something to wear the day before but I could not find anything suitable. Oh well. Haha.Ping's Pink Party (PPP)Enjoyable moment captured :)Another BIG Sunday ahead of me. Gotta crash now! Need to wake up at 6am! :(

Say hello to yet another week!

Dancing craze on Wednesday and Thursday, all in preperation for National Day! I have never seen such a bunch of enthusiastic people before! But yeah, we're gonna shine on the 29th :)Performing this Wednesday for the school's lunchtime concert! Hmmm, actually not very keen due to the poor acoustics. But I hope it'll be good! :) I need to "practice" more for my audition! Sorry SC guys for the reaction I have give you all but I think I should be thankful for every performing oppurtunity, so thank you for giving me the chance!

Other than that, I am going to take the stupid retest and I WILL PASS! We will all be getting our exam timetable on Monday, so I am gonna mug hard and push up all my grades! Urgh! Determination, that's what I need!

Talking about determination, it has been 19 days to my fastfood fast! No doubt it has been hard facing all the temptations. But I think it's cool lah. Practising discipline! Maybe internet fast the next round? :)

I have the strongest urge to get this phone...Then, the thought of having so many phones at home is killing me! Okok, I shall just go with the flow :P One disadvantage. I cannot serectly sms in my pocket cos I would require to hands to type messages! But an urge is an urge...

Can't wait for next Sunday to watch 'The Musical'!!!!!!! Meeting up with 38club as well. It's been AGES since I last saw them! Phew!

Before I hit the bed...

Something that can put a smile on my face :)

2 weeks into fastfood fast

I must say that this is an achievement to me because having a Macdonalds in school is so tempting! Btw, I miss McWings. Heehee. I am so going to buy it on August the first.Suckers, you can't tempt me! Muaahahaha! Subway is considerd healthy right? I kopped abit of veggies only!

I kinda feel lonely out of a sudden. Maybe because of JingWei's departure. Like we can't chat on MSN(time dosent meet), sms, meet up, eat and talk! Oh well... Why am I complaining?! She's more lonely, but thankfully she feels alright to be alone.

That's life...

I had to trash it out

Me? Fail?! Because I took the wrong syringe?! Come on! It's like in a baking test, I used a spoon to whip the dough instead of the whisker! Not even a second chance. Was talked down as if I came to nursing in vain. (I strongly think I am rational and not defending myself)

Bias, she was bias. Her OWN student, didn't comply to the aseptic technique and she still passed. Aseptic technique is more important than just one stoopid syringe. What's more, the units were similiar. Even if I injected using that to a real patient, I believe he/she won't die. But how about the aseptic technique?! All the stoopid microorganisms enter the body already!

I could not help, but broke down. I have never cried/sobbed in front of so many people for a long time. Is it entirely my fault? Lecturer's fault? School system's fault? If it's my fault? I didn't read notes properly?(NOTE: The notes didn't write about not choosing that particular syringe) Lecturer's fault? She didn't warn us about choosing any wrong syringe that will be placed together. Besides, during practice, the syringes were opened up already. Like me, an amature would know? School's fault? That I only knew about the test in the morning? (ok, i was prepared for the test, according what the teacher taught anyway)

I cried because I felt upset. Why can't a human being cry? Oh, I know why, because you're heartless, so you don't cry.

She had to fail me one way or the other. Offered options to her. Still had to fail me. I begged her, like some hopeless child. It meant a lot to me. Does this show I am not competent to be a nurse? So what if I have the passion? I know I'm careless(born with it) but I was extra careful, realising my weakness.

She mocked at me for my lousy maths calculations. I didn't dare to calculate mentally. If I did, and got the wrong answer, wouldent it be worse? I really do miss teachers who encourages me on maths, like Ms Ngiam.

During confrontation, I was thinking, "What for you say such harsh words to me? No wonder you all desperately need nurses in Singapore. Look at how you are all treating them?! Even the nurses themselves(who think they are damn smart) are doing so." I will change it. Yes, one day I will.

This world is so funny, isn't it? On one hand, people say, "Come on, you can do it! You have the capacity to do all these! I believe in you!" On the other hand, "Why are you over-confident? I think you have too much ego." So, where do I stand?

[To my future patients: I'm going through all these because I wanna have the skills to care for you guys. When you are sick, I wanna be there for you. I don't gain anything from all these(except rice in my bowl).] Yup, this makes me feel much better :)

After the test, the first thought that came to me was, "WHAT FOR I GO FOR OPM?!?!" But another part of me had to go for it. And I'm glad I had no regrets :) OPM was a BLAST!

Retest, bring it on! I know the "mistake" and I'm gonna do the best out of it!

Done, thank you for reading!