I'm like super duper tired lor. YAWN. Been having POS practice these 4 days. Been reaching home at about 10plus in the night. I'm not surprise when my mom calls me and asks me why I am not back yet. But actually the main reason for reaching home late would be, FELLOWSHIP! Fun hanging out with you guys! West cluster rocks!
Earlier today I was kinda sad lah... Going through such a low point in my life, the least people around me could do was not to mock at me. I dont mind jokes once in awhile, honestly. But I'll just get irritated and even hurt when your peers scold you or even physically abuse you. And you tell them to stop it, they never.. There I go saying sarcastically, "I love the world!" Ha-ha-ha. Could not control myself and sobbed for a moment thinking, "Am I really that stupid? Why did my studies drop? Will I be able to do well in the future? I even have problems doing a task properly..."
There was someone who recently asked me, "Who do you go to when you're down?" I thought to myself and realise that the answer is no one. Yes I think I am fine kepping certain things to myself but as the negative voices enters my ear, I feel terribly worse... I would always feel better when weeping my troubles into someone's ear but is never given a chance cos not many people would be intrested in my life.
Can I say that I am desprate for............ attention?? Maybe dreaming will help me do whatever a want. I love dreamss...
Earlier today I was kinda sad lah... Going through such a low point in my life, the least people around me could do was not to mock at me. I dont mind jokes once in awhile, honestly. But I'll just get irritated and even hurt when your peers scold you or even physically abuse you. And you tell them to stop it, they never.. There I go saying sarcastically, "I love the world!" Ha-ha-ha. Could not control myself and sobbed for a moment thinking, "Am I really that stupid? Why did my studies drop? Will I be able to do well in the future? I even have problems doing a task properly..."
There was someone who recently asked me, "Who do you go to when you're down?" I thought to myself and realise that the answer is no one. Yes I think I am fine kepping certain things to myself but as the negative voices enters my ear, I feel terribly worse... I would always feel better when weeping my troubles into someone's ear but is never given a chance cos not many people would be intrested in my life.
Can I say that I am desprate for............ attention?? Maybe dreaming will help me do whatever a want. I love dreamss...