Just don't know why things are like that. I know life is full of ups and downs and I believe this is the "down" period... Yeahh. Got back most of my results.. Didn't do fantastically well. In fact, I'm kinda disappointed. I wonder why things are like that. Why would my standerd be almost the same standerd as those who didn't study for exams? You mean all my hours of studying as gone down the drain? I have been reminding myself that I can always try better but deep inside, I'm very disappointed and depressed. It's the fact that I didn't do well. I really wanna do well, I really wanna do well. People placed their hopes in me that I'll be one of the top student for N levels(not being a show off). I thought I could do it also but I just dont know how I can make it... Anyone, please help me.

Not here to make people sad after reading this entry but well, it's something deep inside me where I can't show to the people around me cos I wanna put a brave front to encourage others. And I cannot understand why teachers arent paniking(sp). They're so relaxed and calm. I mean if you get a C for your exam it's ok?? Is my standerd that high? I wonder...

Very tired... Once again, I wanna dream again. You can do anything you want, no boundaries, nothing impossible... And I dream and dream......