It's a Friday and I can use the computer openly! Yay! But I ought to give myself a couple of slaps cos I've been secretly using the computer. Hahaha. But at least I was not as desperate as before! I can slowly cut down and very soon I will live without the computer for weeks. Wahahaha.

Not really happy about some of the class people... Taking such a huge responsibility in class, I have to tell my class people what to do most of the time. But it's not because I want them to but it's my responsibility to tell them. Some will make things so diffcult for me. When I tell them to do something, they bombard me with stoopid questions I dont know how to answer and they even know I cant answer. Not only that, they complain and complain and complain. I wish I could just give them one bloody tight slap across their face. Well, I dont have the courage to tell them off either. But I just wish that they'll know the situation that I am in. Who says that being a leader is easy? Anyone there, help me please?

Every single day I just feel more and more green. Really envy most of the people around me. It's like why they can have it but I cant? Ohwell, at least it makes me appriciate what I have with me. Love the company with my "big sister"!!! Hehehe. Now we communicate with each other everyday and I treasure every single moment with her. If only I dared to call her "jie jie"

Feel like slapping people around me. Wahahhaha. Slap slap slap!

I deserve to be online but only for awhile! Hahaha. Anyway, today had attire check. Many people I knew were caught because of their "long" hair. I have to say that some teachers were rather unreasonable. Maybe catching more students would give them more credits? If so, they're heartless creatures! But honestly, people with acceptable hair were also caught. Urgh, the world is unfair.

And finally we had our 1st maths lesson of our semester for today! I hate maths! But inspiration from certain people help me to pull through this suffering. Haha. Thanks whoever you are :) Starting all over again and hope I can excel!

During CME lesson, was so lame. I was called up with Augustine and Jason to have a little convesational skit to show the class about elections. So crap can. And Auggie kept disturbing me. Grrr... Everyone thinks that I'm crazy over her -.- I'm not okay. I only cant imagine her teaching me and cant help but to laugh. Hahahaha. The good thing about it is that I can be myself and do whatever naughty stuff I want. Wahahahaha.

After school stayed back to do up my D and T project. Can see that the teacher is impressed with me and is willing to help me. I'm believing for an A!!! I hope... But they really have the patience. Even though I have already given up, they would be the ones pushing me to do it! Ahahaha, but all the D and T teachers and workshop people are so cute!

Ok, better start doing my work! Cant wait for the long weekend holiday! Yay!

Sorry but I cant help it but to update! Anyway, I've been waiting all week for this day! Wahahaha. In case you dont know, change of CME teacher! Hahahha. She's like 1 million times better than teddy bear can?!!? But the topic taught was BORING! But basically we got a step closer together. Hehehe.

Today submitted the ITmap(music and programming) Pray hard that BBSS will get in! All along had loads of fun in it. The software allows you to arrange music in any style you like! If the people get to perform live in front of the crowd, that would be so cool okay! And it will bring credit to our name! Praying hard that we'll get in...

Urgh, I desperately miss maths lessons. These 3 days seem forever. Come back, I need you badly..

I loved the pretty yellow sunflower you gave me during one of my humble performance. When the flower's time was up, I plucked the petals and placed them in a container for me to remember your considerate gesture. Now after 3 months, I opened the container and decomposers filled the container with a foul smell. This reminded me of the current relationship I have with you now. Our relationship has already been decomposed. Will I be able to see that bright yellow sunflower followed by your heart-melting smile again?

I wonder...

Perhaps things could not be the way they were like before. Neither will it become better. The only thing I can do is to recall the fun times we had together. Maybe I shall not recall. It makes me more upset. No one can do anything about it. All I can do is just to accept it. But it still hurts.

*ouch* (the chorus of this song is so relavent... that's if you know chinese)

Yeah, schools starting. Will be trying my very, very best not to use the computer. I might sneak up though :) To be honest, I didnt complete my homework. But at least I did most of it okay. Still ought to be proud of myself! Seriously can't wait till school starts! I'll be too busy with my studies till I forget about the upset-ness of this phase of my life. I hope... And I'll be waiting for Tuesday! ARGGGGHH! :DD Marketplace, here we come!! Ya, I hope we can do something great and leave our names there for the many generations ahead!

Okok, better tuck myself in bed early tonight! Yawn, I'm kinda tired too!

My current emotion...

Green followed by blue, and I mean very blue.

And what comes out from my mouth?

Sigh...

Had lessons today! Wahahaha. Missed the teachers talking or shall I say, nagging. Hahaha. But I was bored lah. It wasnt really meaningful to have lessons when only 1/2 of the people are there. I didnt eat before the lesson and I was starving! Finally, time was up and I was so happy. Hahaha. Now you know I'm a typical naughty student. Wahahahaha. Anyway, was planning to eat with my friends until an expected call arrived. I pang seh-ed my friends and went my own way. WAHAHHAHAHA. How evil am I... By the way, SORRY GALS! :D

Went to IMM and had lunch. Hahaha. Simply had a wonderful time lah. Well, school's starting and it so sad we cant really spend as much time together as during the holidays! But it will be interesting when I see something NEW! Wahahahaha. Sorry I have to be secretive... Might as well don't share right!!!?!?!?! Ok, I shall not. Hahaha. I sound sooo naive.

Now trying to stick to the computer before the 26th where I only can use the computer on the weekends and fridays. Hahaha. I wonder would I be able to do so? WE'LL SEE.. I'll be studying till I go crazy, I hope. So classmates, beware... Maria is emerging! *i hope*

Have not been talking to you for so long already. Just miss you a lot... You really mean a lot to me. But now you're not as free as before so I hardly have the chance to go out with you or talk to you. We'll I think I've not really treasure the times we had together. Pity.

Wow.. I already miss school. But yay! I'm having lessons tomorrow! Quite excited about tomorrow! But not as excited as when school starts. Wahahaha. That early morning feeling going to school. Wahaha. And of course me and my classmates will have a lot to chat about. Hehehe.

Some things I will get so so stressed over it. Sigh. It should not be a stressful thing at all but the people around me have made it stressful. You think I dont wish that it'll happen?!?!?! Please lah, I also have the heart and the compassion. But some things cant be, 'you want means it WILL happen' I am also not some physic that can change people's mind okay. Do, do and do until you forget the actual meaning of it and people start to misunderstand. Urgh. I have nothing more to say...

Have been sleeping for an astoundnishing(sp) 13hrs 47mins and 24secs. How long is that!?!? (ignore the mins and secs.. they were made up) Talking about dreams, I didnt remember a single thing :/ Hahaha. I didnt turn on the air-con too! Saved electricity :) I also didnt bathe. *yucks* But now I'm all sparkling clean :D

Oh yes, I'm like so so so so jealous.. But not until I hate the person but just disappointed and sad. Well, some people are at THIS level and here I am, at this level. Nevertheless, I will just continue to do the things I should do. This is definately a lesson I learn in life. Seesh, talking about sacrifices.

I truly hate reality where I have to fit in it... Unlike dreams, they fit into me :) So I'm all grouchy this morning. Argh! Not forgetting my homework. But I always repeat this phrase to myself..

IT'S ALL FOR YOUR OWN GOOD!!!!

YAWN. So tired. Guess I'm gonna take a nap after this. Woke up at 6 in the morning okay... Went to the stadium to in a way help out the choir there lah. They were performing for SYF opening. I think it's so cool okay. Aww, I just wish I could be one of them...... They were so colourful.. Filled with red, green, yellow and blue!

So we like hid in the shade and did our own stuff. We had a little pinic of Macdonalds! Wahahahha. Wasnt that hungry so I didnt order any meal. But in the end, I was eating fries. Urgh. I think I'm gonna get fat real soon :\ Seeing them perform again, the campus superstar Zhi Yang and Teresa joined in to sing too. They were the limelight of the performance. I thought to myself, "So cool, they are about the same age as me and they are able to sing in front of 40,000 people. How cool is that?!" Wow whee. Maybe many people have dreams. But only a few dreams can happen. I mean, if everyone had their dreams fulfilled, wouldent the world be in a chaos? Some will have their reward, but some just have to let go.......

Me, the choir advisor, can do but can't advise... It's hard to talk to them. Hahahha. How? How? I need the wisdom and confidence.. If only I can sing and sing. Wahahahaha. BBSS choir has indeed changed. If only every single member would be as enthu as me. Hating the other CCA but loving choir. WAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA!

Super tired, need a nap.

OKOK, I'M SO HAPPY OKAY! HAHAHAHAHA! NOTHING CAN CONTAIN MY EXCITMENT! HEHEHE. SOME MAY FIND IT SUPER STRANGE BUT I DONT CARE, I'M STILL HAPPY! :DDDDD I WANNA SMILE TILL MY JAWS HURT COS I'M HAPPY! IF YOU FIND ME TOO IRRITATING, IGNORE ME! MARIA'S OVER THE MOON AND IT'S NOT A GOOD SIGN FOR THE PEOPLE AROUND HER COS SHE'LL GO CRAZY! :)

Hehehee. Today went to Vanessa's house to study! But before that, we cooked our own lunch! Was yummy! Hahaha. And we studied for about 3 hours. Wasnt sastisfied though. But I still have a few days before school starts and I'll be all prepared! (I hope)

After that went to Orchard with Acelyn, Wan Ting and Markus! Bought some things... YES! At least I had a chance to go to town during my holiday! Whee! Okok, kinda tired now. Wondering if I can sleep tonight! Wahahhahahaha! :D

It's like a dream come true! I've achived a beautiful friendship with a certain someone! :D Hehehe. Wonder if she feels the same as I do.. But I'm really happy to know her. We were destined to know each other! Definately! Been going out with her the past few days, spending quality time together :D

Thanks for being part of my life :)

Hello! Ahh. Now I'm finally less busy. Hehehhe. Anyway had service this morning. The drama was super awesome can. Hahaha. "chin-jia-ho!" Full of new things. Very creative! Went to hall 1. Whoa. I tell you, you can spend 5 mins walking and you're only half way! Super far!

After that went to my primary school classmate's house warming party. Was ok lah. Wasnt provided food to eat. We all also abit diao cos we primary schoolmates were the minority. We were stonning around. But caught up in loads of stuff. Hahaha. They were suprised to see the change in me! I even slimmed down :)

Poof! And it's the last week of the school holidays! SO FAST!!! Well, need to make those brain cells work again. Okokok, let me make a vow here..

Me, Maria Boey will not use the computer except on fridays and the weekends. Instead, I will spend my time studying. I only can use the computer only when I have to do something urgently like projects of whatsoever. Not MSN messanger, not blogging. AND THAT'S FINAL!
(only applies after 26th July 2006)

I think it's a good idea. Please do understand when I go crazy. Just like taking drugs, I'll do something adnormal when deprived from the usual things I have :D

Argh! I got this super duper ugly tan! GRRRR. My sun tanning session in pulau ubin had gone down the drain. Boohoohoo. No fair, no fair!! Hmph! The gb thing was okay lah... Some people pissed me off though. I just hope I will never see them again this lifetime. Wahahaha. I think I'm a violent person. But I only say, never do... So I think it's ok :D Maybe if I say, "I'm gonna whack you" don't take it too seriously ya. It's just casually saying it. Heehee.

I desperately miss you. Sigh. But things cant always be in my way either. Ya I know I have let you down by not doing a really good job. But it wasnt on purpose. I would always want to do a good job and impress you... I dont know what you are thinking of me now. Sigh......

Yeah, cant wait till service. I wanna see how cool is hall 1. Peeped at the fathers' day drama and I think that it's totally cool! Yeah! Dramas always insipre me... Ahhhh.

It's like super early in the morning now and what am I just reached home. I got many things to complain about. Hahahaha. Firstly, it's my stomach. Went for make-up cellgrp just now. And my tummy hurts from praise until now! Super cannot stand it! *complain* and also, waited so long for that bus! Grr, gave up and decided to take a cab. $5.20... Seeeeeeeeessssshhh! And now, I'm deprived from my sleep cos my bed is so filled with things. I dont care, I'm gonna grumble and grumble.

I believe that I WILL finish my holiday homework soon! Still have abit more to go! *complain* GRRRRRRR... and have to go for some stoopid gb thing tomorrow. I go to give them face. Hope I wont be bored to death (like last year) and fall asleep halfway. I'd rather go for cgm. HMMMMM...

I miss service though! Yearning to come for service! Argh! Hehehe. Very excited. I wonder why some people hate chc so much though. But still, we'll have a revival for hundreds of years and no one will ever beat that! :D

Pulau Ubin photos are here! Hehe. My back hurts a little cos of the sunburn but Monday I'm going for another sun tanning session! WHEE!


Going there... :D










Beloved Phoebe!!!










Taking a break










Going back!!










Tmr going to study with the people! WHEE! I think I will complete my homework by tomorrow. SO FAST! Can play play and play. Oops! Revise too!

Hello! Just came back from Pulau Ubin! Had a fun time there.. First had games. Okok lah, quite fun.. Hehhe. But after that was the main thing. CYCLING!!! Whee! I didnt know that cycling in the island is so fun! Yeah I shall upload the photos later. Maenwhile, I shall take a lil nap till mom gets home and chases me out of her bedroom! WAHHAHAHA.

Okie! I'm back from Batam *again* Anyway today's visit was for another purpose... Went to the shipyard my dad is working in. Had this naming ceremony. The 2 ships were beautiful! :) Yar, and was so warmly welcome by the people. Felt like the VIP for the 1st time.

Wearing the saftey helmet I stole from my dad! I look funny. Hahaha.











Yeap, the ships behind me. Cool huh.











Inside a cabin! Very cosy in there :)












Inside the engine room! Amazing machines!











Me and dad! :D















Maybe enough of the ship thing. Wahahha. Had abit of shopping and bought a adidas top. I so love it okay. Hehehe. Not forgetting for tea we had A & W... Ate the ice-cream wafer. Ahahaha! Wan Ting, can you beat that!?











Lalala, looks like I have to eat less already! Need to exercise more too! Boohoohoo! So, tomorrow, I'm going to Pulau Ubin with my cg! Hope it will be fun! WHEE!

Alright, I'm so not going to blog about Batam already. Lazy to post all those pictures. Well you can go to Wan Ting's blog! http://www.whineywhiner.blogspot.com/ hehe. Yup photos are all there.

I'm kinda happy about today. Went to school to do my holiday homework! Angela came by to do her homework also! I love doing my homework there :) It's so peaceful, no computers, no TVs. And I'm more than halfway already! (excluding Chinese) Hehehe. After that had the IT map thingy. Hope I'm not being an extra there. But it's very fun! Making music!

Hmm, if you know me, I would tell you that I regret quitting playing the Piano. It's been 7 years since I took my grade 1 exam! Have always been wanting to pick it back up again... Now I have the chance. But I'm afriad that people begin to look at me in a different way. And also my exams. But again if I learn, how many great songs can I compose and even play in front of people! I'm so confused!

Tomorrow I'm going to Batam *again* doing some ship naming thing. I think it would be fun so just go lor. No harm done. (hmm, maybe getting seasick?) I think there will be many gifts. Wahahhaa.

Hello everyone! I'm back! Did anyone miss me? I hope so. Well, if not one did, I MISSED EVERYONE HERE! I even miss the teddy lying on my bed. Wahahaha. Maybe you guys are wondering, how is my Batam trip.. Hmm, I think it's ok lah. At least I get to go somewhere away from this hectic life of mine and just enjoy myself! There's only 2 things to enjoy however. The food and SHOPPING!!! Aiyah, I tell you, I was a millionaire in Batam! And how rich is that. Hehehe.

One Sunday morning, had a great expirence in a church called Gihon. It reminded me of the place back home (chc)... Hehehe. Rather similar. But it's a pity I didnt really enjoy the service totally cos EVERYTHING WAS SPOKEN IN BERHASA!!!! How on Earth am I going to understand that?!?!! So it's kinda wasted lor. Was so so lost during the service. Heh, speaking of discipline I had to nudge my dad a few times so that wouldent go into dreamland. But I can really see the hearts of the people there(those sitting at the 1st few rows)... Really so fervent and on fire! And they had these cool tamborine dancers during praise! TOTALLY COOL! Do ask me more questions on the service ya. I would gladly share it with you!

I cannot upload any photos because Miss Liang Wan Ting asked me to give her more time to upload the photos and send it to me. Oh, we sure did have a fun time RIGHT?! She bought this totally cool puma jumper. Didnt manage to get it cos it doesnt have my size. NO FAIR. It's just 1 size apart right?! Beware Wan Ting... Someone might just murder you. HEHEHEHE.

Will talk more about it the next enrty lah. Wanna bathe and sleep already.

Hello! Now Wan Ting is here beside me! Whee! I'm so so excited man!

ELLO THERE:)
wanting.

WAHAHAHA! Will be updating photos of Batam when I return ya. SEEYA!!

Haha. I was just wondering if my brother would become a sister... How wonderful it would be man! We can share everything we wear, I can sleep in the same room with her and we can talk talk and talk! Whee! I think her name would be Melanie? Hahaha. What a disappointment right? But ok lah. If not for my brother I would have known so many computer stuff and German songs. Hahaha.

Well, I still have gal friends who are almost the same age as my brother and they are great sisters! Yeah! I think it's so cool being in your 20s. Can't wait for it. Wahahaha.

Leaving in about 6 hours time and I have not started packing! Had a very bad dream. I hope it only exist in my dream and will never be true! Will come back again when Wan Ting comes over! :D

Hahaha, just came back from school. I was super bored! So was called up by someone to come to school kay po kay po abit. But I was there early on purpose and decided to do my homework in class! Was kinda worried lah. If someone saw me in class, I'd be so embarassed. Anyway, I did some work so I ought to be proud of myself!

Had this project called ITMAP. This software is designed to compose music. Something like garageband which I kinda know about it. Hehee. I would love to join in but I'm not that musically inclined and I'm sec 4 this year. Boohoohoo. But at least I'm invited to drop and even help out! Of course I will complete my homework before doing all these stuff.

After that hanged out in school and helped someone to clean her desk! Hahaha. Sniffed in loads of dust. But now the desk is much more neater now! Hehee! If only my room now can be as neat as her desk. Wahahaha.

Tired already. Excited about tomorrow! Wonder what I can buy there. Hehehe.

Okie. It's another same old day where I have to stay at home the whole day. Urgh. It scares me cos I have to face this dirty room of mine. Well, after blogging I'm gonna brush my teeth, eat my breakfast and *poof* off to work! Speaking of brushing teeths, yesterday I went to Mee Han house for awhile with Benson to spend some time. His mom was telling Mee Han in front of us, "Mee Han have you brushed your teeth?" Benson and I looked at each other and we giggled. Wahahahhaa. Please lah. He's like 16 already and needs someone to remind him to brush his teeth?! HAHAHAA!

Had a funny dream. Well, I was in school. Heard some noises like someone being beaten up outside the school. Went out and saw that it was some school mate! Can you believe it? People around them were just staring and not helping the poor fellow. So I went in between them and tried to stop. The people beating up the guy were girls. Can you believe it. So there I was trying to stopped them. In the end, they "vented" their anger at me. And I was beaten up. And I woke up cos I needed to use the toliet badly. Wahahaha. But this dream tells me that this is how you make sacrifices for others. Not always thinking of yourself but others instead. What a powerful lesson.

Yeah, I know it's kinda crappy lah. My friends are starting to have blogs now! There's one thing I'd like to comment. Spelling and language! C M I !!!! I find it very hard to read their entries. Hahaha. Ok. Will drop by later!

Guess what, Wanting is coming to Batam together with me! Whee! Are we good friends or what? We've been to Thailand together before, sleep with each other during camps and ever bathed together before. OOPS. Sometimes we're not really close to each other in school but I realise that she's my best friend :) Sometimes I even hate her. But what are friends not disliking each other. So very excited! Hehehe!

Tomorrow studying at home! My aim is to study 3 hours. Hope I still have the stamina to mug. Meeting up sometime to study together with cg members too! Thank you sister Phoebe for organizing it. Even though I'm kinda hopeless in maths already, you never give up on me. Somemore see you taking up your time to give tuition. You're awesome!

Yay! Have not been playing with my nails for days already. Cos I have applied nail polish onto my nails. When I play, I scrape my nails off. How ugly is that. Hehehe.

Hello! Today was great! Went to school to help out choir a little bit. Feel so happy that I'm just being someone expirenced watching over the current leaders. I have never ever felt that way before. And after that, went to Bishan to do something great! :DD

Okie, before I continue, let me post all the pictures of 20th Anniversary :)

Me and beloved Sishi!











w325 BBSS team!











Mrs Wong! Love her even though she has never taught me before.











Nicole and I! Haha, we dont look alike now right?











Me and Theresa! She's so pretty!











CHOIR PEOPLE!











Me and Mr Foo! It was said that we look like each other. Hehehe.











I so miss her can. I want her to teach me CME!!











D and T staff. Thanks for helping me!











Group photo!











Same colour (: What great taste we have!











Sherrie my cute cute junior!











Finally, HEHEHE! Love her loads!

Yay. So exciting! Going to Batam this weekend. But so sad I have to miss cgm and service :( Well, cos it has been delaying for weeks and weeks that I have to go over to see see. My parents keep asking me to go. So I must go sooner or later. Might as well go this week :\ At least it's not last week where I have to miss Emerge. Hahaha.

However, my dad's so not happening! Restricts me from buying fancy stuff. Oh well, at least I can buy handbag, polo tee, shoes and jeans! Better than nothing. Sure feel free to tell me what you wanna get and I'll try my best! Batam wont be a very nice place like Orchard Road though, I tell you 1st.

Tomorrow going to Marche! Whee! So sad the voucher is not $800. Now have to bring some money along. Hahahaha! Joking only lah. But I feel we're gonna have a fun time there! Whee! Will definately take photos there.

In the midst of packing up my room. It's killing me! Help!

The real meaning of holiday means you do NOTHING as in no school, no homework, no lessons. Just to simply enjoy every single day of it without thinking of schoolwork. Well, for Singapore or maybe the place I study in, it means serectly working hard. So to be "in trend", I have to study despite hating it so much! Urgh!

At least I'm less than halfway through the holidays. Trying to enjoy myself before the stress comes in again. Yet to go to town, catch a movie and many many more activites. Oh dear, I have not start on my swimming routine! Hehehe. Probably too lazy to swim lah.

Super cannot stand my brother! Cos now he cant use the computer in his room, he comes to mine! If he's like some neat person I would not mind. The fact is that, HE'S NOT! Let me show you how unorganized I am 1st...

boo!











boo!











boo!!!











Totally messy. Agree?

Desperately miss you. Always miss the chance of seeing you. Sighh. I want you to appear in my dreams! Really miss you. It is like I can't go through the day happily without seeing you. I wonder what more can I do just to please you. Argh! I'm going crazy! Help me!

I can never study in the evenings except when I'm outside with my cg members :) But I'm a morning/afternoon kinda person. And night time means PARTY!! :DD However I'm sleeping early to wake up early tomorrow to start work! *urgh* work.

I HATE HOMEWORK
But I have no choice. If fact, IT'S ALL FOR MY OWN GOOD!!

Woke up this morning to go to school for choir. Can you believe it?! But it was a mistake. I was already excused and need not come for practices already. So to maximise the use on the 90 cents I use to travel to school, I stayed on :) Learnt 2 new songs. The songs were nice and kinda easy to learn. Without the people in the same level as me, I feel kinda lonely. Even though I'm socialble, I still feel lonely without my peers around. Argh! Don't tell me I have to suffer this.

After practice the current leaders and Miss Seah stayed back to discuss certain matters of the choir. Hahaha, I didnt know I was known as the choir's advisor. What a nice name :D But I dont sit there and shake leg okay. Helping out a lot wheather I like it or not...

Then, I went to the D and T room. Did abit of my project. I'm very sick of doing it! But I have no choice. So sad :( But had some fun there destroying the waste wood. Hehehe. We were too noisy until the instructor came up to complain. Wahahaha. We were like throwing wood here and there.

But I didnt reach my goal - to do my maths homework for 1 hour. Boohoohoo. But I'm definately going to do it! :D


EMERGE PHOTOS

Yeah! We've emerged!










W325! We're happening people!










Enjoying the holiday of slagging around. Aww, I wish my living room haa this super soft couch and I'll be lazing there the whole day :\

YAY! New blogskin! Hehehe. I think this one is nicer. Cos it features my eye. But ignore those pimples!

In the current life of mine. There is no such thing as studying in my room. So off I go out of my room! So, so, so hard to fight those temptations esp this computer.

Thinking of the pictures... Sighhh. And sorry, give me more time to update my links :D

Okie I only managed to find 2 photos. I'm seriously dying to see the photos I've taken! Argh! But I only can get them on thursday. Pity. But, be happy with what I have! :DD

Sishi and me!











Choir Sec4s :D










Went to school just now for D and T. Sadly, I wasted my time there. Too many strangers there lah. (the sec5s) And I have never seen such hostile people in my life. Some GB seniors. I smiled at them but they looked at me as if they didnt know me. I recalled a few years back, "Welcome to the family!" Yeah right. My worst decision. NEVERMIND. There's always a purpose in everything.

Super drousy right now. And hungry too.

HELLO! I just emerged! I tell you, something's changed. I'm never the same Maria before 4th June 2006. The conference has finished, the real emerge has started... World, HERE I COME! Also, emerge had touched my heart countless times. I would never leave that presence. Spiritually active but physically tired and I mean, TIRED.

Anyway, I had this unexpected dream. This particular person who mean a lot to me broke down into tears. The person came to me and I allowed her to use my shoulder. There, she told me every single thing that burderned her. I was just there to lend her a listening ear. I would if it's true that something is disturbing her....

For the 2nd time, I felt family's love strongly. Strangly, they are not even my cell group members. And of course I'm terribly sorry to say that. They are the west people. Can you believe it? I have only known them for about 3 months and we're stucked together like a family. Despite achieving last in the secondary school clusters, we are not sad cos we have achieved something much more meaningful, friendship. We all have a similar aim, seeking revival in the west! But again we believe that next year we WILL emerge!

Okokok, enough about that. Now, it's time to STUDY! *complain* If course I am like any other typical student who dislikes studying. NOW YOU KNOW :D So, off I go! Shall update the photos ASAP!

Ahhh! Just came back from BBSS 20th Anniversary Dinner! I think it was great! Have never attended such a fun dinner my whole life! The food wasnt that fantastic lah. Somemore was "forced" to eat the food cos there were only 4 people at my table. How pathetic.

But it wasnt about the food, it was the fun time I had there! Can't believe that my school can become a big dining area. And the credit goes to Ms Ngiam for doing such a great job! I think if not for her, the dinner wouldent be a successful one :)

Hahaha, choir's performance was so-so. The songs were BORING. Cos we sang it millions of times before our concert. But due to time constrian(sp), we had to use the old songs. How impressive -.- Hehee, during the closing ceremony, SOMEONE sang the school song in front of the whole school. Even lead in the brithday song, CHC STYLE. WAHAHAHA. Seeing revival in BBSS. That would be so cool!

Sorry I'm unable to upload the pictures cos I currently dont have it... Oh, saw many teachers and old seniors! Missed many of them! Esp Mrs Ruth Tan! I love love love her! Hmm, saw many others also lah. HEHEHE. Feel so happy when the people around me feel so shock with what I wore. My aim : To look like a geek in school but something different outside :D

Whatever! Had a wonderful night too!!! NEVER HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH YOU BEFORE. Things between us just get more exciting. Hehehe. Hope we'll have other time together again! So I'm so tired!

Hello! Super busy with emerge so I dont really have the time to blog. You can say that I'm extremely tired. But there's a price to pay! :) Anyway, yesterday was the starting day and I performed in front of the whole congregation for the 1st time! WHEE!






Me and Hua Hui. My make-up wasnt up yet :








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Kezia and me!!!








Me and Jo-Ann! :)






And of course, not forgetting my Angel!!!












Close shot of my eye... I love those stars!




That's about it! Sorry if I am unable to post some photos. Is either I am ugly in it or there's something wrong with blogger. Heh... But it's so cool right?! Never had such nice make-up before! I LOVE the hair colour! It's a pity that my hair is now white. Boohoo.


About today.. AWESOME! I dont where to start so I'm not gonna share. HAHAHA. However during the night session, can you believe it?!?! Superstars came to perform. I was so stunned. Firstly, was Kelly from superstar. My jaw dropped.. That was not the end. Jun Yang came too. Super duper stunned. And finally, Taufiq from Singapore Idol came! SEESH! I dont really like them as in go crazy over them or whatever but I was screaming for them. Hahaha. Was playing my part to be a atomosphere creater. Other than being so shocked, I have learnt the as long as I believe in my dreams, things will happen esp when someone great lives in me! YAY! Sadly, they wernt unable to expirence anything in our hall today. Well, imagine if they were one of us, they could do amazing things and shake Singapore!

Tired already shall continue tomorrow! :)

Today is THE day! With the many weeks of intense practice, finally it's today! Kinda excited but extremly tired. Hardly have the time to sit down and do my holiday homework. Well, I gotta put in more effort the next few weeks lor. Poor me. Hahahaha. Frankly speaking, I have doubts about winning... Cos it's like we not in timing and we dont smile enough. Oh well, hope today we'll put a great performance.

Yesterday after preview I rushed back all the way to school to support my choir in their rehearsals. I had to pay a price, S$16... And I did not get to see them perform. Only only during the finale. But least had supper :)

Yesterday I just felt so loved by what someone said to me. The person really cares a lot. Seeing the smile on her face makes me feel so assured. If only I had more time together with her...

Back to that feeling again. Why do people wanna lie?! Do you know that I care careless about the things you do? Do you know why I am so affected about it and wanna do something? It's because I care! I really do. Maybe some things are just beyond my control. Well, that's life.. But I'll be praying for you, making sure that nothing bad will happen.

My room is *dont know what word to use* messy! Only can clean it up next week. ARGH!!