Woo! I slept at 3.30am this morning and woke up at 6am for school! And I'm still kinda energetic! :D I can feel that it's really supernatural strength. (ok even though i took a LITTLE nap during physics) Yay! If this could carry for days. Hehehe.

Currently still pia-ing my D and T! Okok, maybe after next week I can HECK CARE about D and T already! And so I'll have more time to concentrate on other subjects. Hehehe.

Today someone didnt come though.. I know if you are a bit sick you will still come to school. Your condition must be rather bad. Hope you are feeling better! :D Felt abit odd not having maths for a day though.

Urgh, time is ticking!! Choing arh!

Move of God was tremendous... Words can't express it. I'm speechless. Wahahahaha. But in any case, YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT! I'M NOT AFRIAD ALREADY. Hehehe. I've got someone big to protect me! :D

Now trying to pia D and T... SO happy that I didnt go home strighat after service okay. But please maximise my time and expand my capacity. So what am I doing here?!?!?! Gotta go!!

I can't help but to think positive things! *smiles*

It's home alone again! Whee! But only for 1 night. No fun. Anyway, I'm no more green cos I know where I stand! :) Come to think of it, I was so childish! Thanks to cgm, Valleys! Was super blessed! I want more trials! -.-

Afternoon to evening, study time! Contented that I completed most of my work! Yeah! But yet to complete D and T. Just sent the photos for development. Hope they turn out ok. Of cos it will! $0.40 per piece. Is it expensive or what?!?! But still, had fun taking photos at Bishan's Macs!

Introducing, Victor! Helped me abit in A.Maths. Somemore ensured me that the answer was correct.






















Candid shot. Ugly pimple on my cheek :(

















I hate my frindge!

















Me, Victor and Vanessa :D

















Peien!


































Okok, busy day. Still have to pia my D and T folio! But no pictures, cant do anything! So have to stone around.. Haha, no lah, must study! I trying to enjoy it! :DD WHEE!

I'm feeling like super super green. Grr, I don't know why but I'm so affected by it! It's actually a small matter but I take it so seriously. Sigh. I want it to happen yet, I'm so jealous. Am I like so selfish? Only thinking about myself... If I could poessess that person I would do that to enjoy the person's privilages! Sorry lah, no where else to vent my jealousy on. But I can't blame that person. But when I see people giving the person some things that I want instead, it breaks my heart and jealousy just falls upon me. SO, SO GREEN!

Weekends are here again.. So fast! Good thing is I can do more work but the bad thing is that it's one week closer to my prelims! But I believe I can make it! Yeah!! :DD

Hope you'll never leave me.. Thanks for protecting me. No one else in the world can protect me except you. I feel very assured when I know you are always there for me! But please don't leave me......

Anyway, I think I've figured my love languauge already after years of thinking. Hahaha. Well, my love language to people (or to someone) would be service and quality time and from people would be physical touch and words of affirmation. *hint hint* Hehehe.

The thing I feel like doing now is to go to some country side and admire green hills with sheep roaming about. Ahhh, how wonderful. The weather so chilly yet you can feel the sun's warmth. Not forgetting someone (I look up to) sitting beside me chatting about almost everything!

*SLAPS*

Stop dreaming! Well, well, well. It's back to reality where I have tons of homework. *cries* Why is reality so like that? Boehoe.. Guess I have to go back to work at this very moment :\ Do pity me... Hurhur.

Everyone around me is so moody. Esp my jiejie. Breaks my heart. I hope everything is fine. Same goes to my friends and Mommy. If only I could be the one there to make them smile. Heh, I think I'm not good enough to cheer people though. My current feeling is like so neutral.

Anyway, stayed back for awhile to watch choir. Was in a way standing by as a teacher to talk to them and all that. I tell you, cannot make it! It's from the bottom from my heart okay! I wished I was not part of that choir. Oops! But really, they're like soooo dead. No comments...

Just feeling so so tired. I wish I can go to sleep but sadly I can't :( Have to do my work. But I want to dream and dream that everyone around me will be happy! With giggling and laughing all day long! Ahhhh...

In some areas in my life,
I chose to ignore, give way and move on!

Try it! It works pretty well! :DD

Right after I blog, I shall go and study! Hehehe. Anyway, just came back. Grr, can I say that I wasted one whole afternoon buying birthday presents for friends? Maybe I didnt really waste my time cos I had quality friendship time with my good buddy, Jasmine! :D

Oh, was told that people from 2E6 liked my performance. Out of the other 2 lead singers, they prefered me even though I was mainly back-up and only led in 1 song. So diao can. Makes me so scared. They said I had the voice and the looks -.- They are like so blind?!?! Me? Looks? Give me a break please. Heh heh, my lil fan club? *yeah right* Very scared already. Dont think I dare to perform in school anymore. Hahaha. I don't know if it's totally true. But I know it's from a reliable source. Waahahaha :)

Today's Chinese Oral :( I really tried my best okay! I think I only hit 45%. Boohoohoo. Well, I was so, so encouraged when Jasmine told me that SOME people in my class requested the teacher to ask the question in English. HAHA. I wasnt nervous at all lah. I just didnt know what Chinese word to use! Urgh! Well, let's hope I can make it...

Meanwhile, I shall concentrate on other subjects! STUDY!!! :D

Later still must go out. *SIAN* You think I like to go out meh? I wanna stay at home and do my work! Anyway, back from service! Loved the Marriage Seminar thing. It really prepares before having a relationship. Maybe it isn't that bad right? Cos I have been in a way, kind of strict to myself, setting my own rules and all that.. PHOTOS!

That's me and Sheryne! With my super ugly hairstyle.





















Me, Xinni and Zhinian! I have puny eyes compared to them. Urgh.

















Tomorrow is my Chinese Oral! It's like so soon! Wish me all the best okay. Wahahahaha. Meanwhile I shall take a lil nap :D

Yes I am sick of maths! Wanna try sitting in your room for hours doing maths homework? *faints* But sadly, still can't complete it! It's scary man! I want the brains! Boohoohoohoohoo! But nevermind! I'm always motivated to try and try! BOO! I'M BACK RIGHT AT YOUR FACE! :DD

My leader got this from Taiwan. Everyone had a different pattern. I think it's extremely cute!! :)





















That's my form teacher with MY guitar. I love her slim body. It's so for me.. Wahahaha.

















Okok, better go back to work. Enough maths for today. Let's do other subjects!

"Study Maria!!"

Yes yes I will =p

Today's racial harmony day! Sadly, I didnt wear anything to stir up the atomsphere. Wasnt really excited cos it was like kinda last minute and I had to idea what to wear already. People around me were like asking, "Maria, why didn't you wear anything??" Hahaha. Means they expected me to wear something. Nevermind, there is always next year :D

Mood was ruined over a couple of things. Sigh.. Sometimes I try my best to reach your expectation but I cant. I dont know if I should feel sorry or angry, sigh.. Anyway, some photos!

Wen Hui and me... She's wearing my top!

















Shao Yu's face with Louis Koo's eye. Look like some chee koh peh..

















A group photo without me :/

















Day was better when I had a date with jiejie. Someone said I didnt blog about her enough so I shall write more. Hahaha. Love spending time with her! :D I wish this can happen everyday. Wahahaha. Eh, I dont know what to write about you already. Hahaha.

The following photo is to irritate someone x) I think you look ok lah, just look different. Hehehe. (click on it to see a bigger picture!!!)

















Haha, super tired now. I guess now in school they are having NDP rehearsal. So sunny and tiring. Yawn.. NAP!

Ok, I case you didn't know, I made the words a lil larger because someone said that it was too small and she had a hard time reading it. What to do? People get older and older these days. Sigh. Hehehe!

I'm like so having my post-performance syndrome. Usually will feel weak and tired, and suddenly will feel better. Can't sleep now! Wahahaha. But at least I managed to do my work after that 2 hour nap. Yay! So proud can. Doing work infront of the computer, not distracted at all!

Let me play...

Whee! Whee!Whee! Whee! Whee! Whee! Whee! Whee!

I shall force myself to sleep. Urgh..

Hello. Just finished my performance! It wasn't really a good show to me though. Out of the 100%, I think we only did 50%. Esp for me! I think I screwed up so badly during the song I led. Argh. I asked people for opinions but they all said it was good. Is it me or is it them??

Now I feel so, so weak. What's more, tummy hurts so badly. It's like I've went through a battle and I'm wounded. All my energy is sucked up. It feels like I'm going into a trance.

My eye lids are getting heavier and heavier......

OK! At least I'm back like before 5 today! Hehehe. But still my so tired. Yawn. Performing tomorrow! Not really prepared.. How!??!! Hope I won't screw up in anything. It's performing in school and many people I know will watch me. Argh. Haha. At least I'm the lead singer for only 1 song when there are 8 songs. Hehee. Do come by the concourse to support me k? It's makes me more confident. HAHA.

There will also be an oprea singer singing. I tell you, it's a MUST WATCH! Please stay throughout the concert as that will be the last item. It will blow your mind. I wish I could be as strong as her man! Hope she'll remember me too when she becomes famous. Hahaha.

Please please tag ok? Fill up my tagboard but don't spam it. I can delete your post by the way. HAHAHA. Mug mug mug!

Hello! It's certainly a wonderful day today! Except for the super humid weather which makes me perspire a lot. Wonderful? Maybe not for my class. They probably take it so seriously when being offended in any way. Hurhur, makes me loose face? I hope not... I feel so relieved not having maths for 1 whole day! If only no maths everyday! HAHA. Joking joking. That will neer happen.

After school went for band practice! Gonna perform after school this Thursday. Not really prepared lah. Hope I won't screw up. When I was on the way home earlier today, 2 sec3 girls shouted, "Byebye Maria!" I was so stunned! And then one girl shouted, "You rock!" I was like -.- I know I'm a friendly person. Haha! But at that point of time I didn't know what to do. So I only smiled. Hope they won't think I'm hostile or whatever.

Some pictures taken when extremely bored..
Despite being so so blur, I LOVE HER! Esp her food. Wahahaha.
















2 green mokozi and moriji!!!
















2 orange mokozi and moriji!!!

















The normal way we take photos..

















Like our lips? Muacks!

















Someone said that she is the vampire, I am the victim. Haha.

















Hahaha! I bet no one can beat my camera! The funny thing is that I only knew about these special functions after 1 year. Haha. I'm such a kuku. Time to study already! Hehehe. Soaking myself in all the worksheets and books. Urgh.

Ok, I be here only for awhile! Wow, I have been super tired the past few days! Not enough sleep I guess. I really admire those who sleep at 1 or 2 plus and is still kinda energetic. Hehehe. Today after school met jiejie for lunch. Argh! Must cut down already. Have been reaching home like after 4 everyday. Boohoohoo. But had a fun time! I always have a fun time :D

And now I'm like at home staring at all the work. Feel so scared but I have to persist!! But home's not the suitable studying place for me. I can only like do homework but can't study and revise and all that. Nevermind. Press on, press on!

Guess things in my life are getting better and better! Besides being so tired, I choose to SMILE! :DD WHEE! (putting all my worries behind my teeth!)

Hahhaa. Service was a blast. I was very blessed by everything. Wow. If everything is broadcasted in any channel on the TV. Everyone will be shaken man! Anyway, thank you Phoebe, Angel, Kenneth and Peien! They stayed back after service to help me in my amaths, one way or another! Esp Phoebe and Angel, you guys rock!! Hehe, we were like all competing with each other who would do the question the fastest. Phoebe would use her left hand to give me chance. HAHAHA. Well, at least now I'm more confident in doing those disgusting sums. Hahaha. I will persist no matter what!

When I reached home, was so tired! When I woke up from my nap, I realised 2 people called my on my hp. Sishi and Mommy. Hahaha. I didn't really recall what they talked to me about. HAHA. But at least I had the deserving sleep!

Urgh, GB day is tomorrow. The worst thing is I have to wear full-u the whole day! Not only it makes me hot, it also makes me super ugly! No offence but it's gross! Nevermind, just face reality. Give GB face also. But I'm so going to stay in class the whole day.

I'm so broke. Help me! Very soon I'll be declared bankrupt. Wahahaha. If I'm more calculative than before, please understand!

Yay! I'm back from Marina Bay! Whee! Phew! I smell like oil. Yucks! Anyway, had a great time cooking and eating! Not forgetting spending time with w325! A cute bunch of people though. HAHA.

All busy with the food
































Peien, Lisa and myself!
































All the white people. Haha.
















Fun! But my tummy feels kinda funny already. Seesh. SLEEP!

So not used to be staying at home on a Saturday afternoon. Urgh, means I have to do work too. Actually that's a good thing! :D I get to study! WHEE! The bad thing is no conpanion... Earlier today went to do my D and T. Was not really fulfilling but cos I redid a lot of things. And you'll never like the smell of brunt acrylic. It stinks man! I bet I've inhaled like tons of posionous gases. And I'm still alive! Means I'm a strong person. Heh heh.

Later going to Marina Bay to have steamboat with w325! Can eat and eat! Hahaha. I hope I wont gain any weight from all the food. But the main reason is that we're having a farewell gathering for Jun Wei cos he's going for NS. Won't be around with us that often already :( We will all definately miss him!

Mug mug mug...

Hehe, went out just now at about 9 plus. So happening can. Met jie jie up to have late dinner. Spent $4.20 on taxi fare.. Pity. But it's worth the company. RIGHT? Hehehehe. Was kinda sick of fastfood esp CHICKEN but it's ok.. I ate fries instead *urgh* I'm gonna avoid fastfood for the next 1 month. If not I'll just vomit.

VOMIT

This morning I had a very good lesson. No matter how much face you lose, just apologise even though you're not wrong to shut the opposite party up. The people around will definately be at your side and even admore you. Trust me.

Well, I took the bus to school this morning.. The bus was super packed. At a certain bus stop, an old lady boarded the bus. The driver was telling her to squeeze in and I think she mistook it for maybe asking her to get out of the bus. So she was furious and started blaming the driver. The driver wasnt angry because he didnt do anything wrong and was shouted at. They argued and argued.. After a while, the driver just said sorry and the lady also said sorry. I was like -.- So childish can. But I really admire the bus driver. It takes up a lot of courage to apologise and stop the argument. *claps* hahaa.

Weekends are here! Can catch up in my sleep. Sleeping for 7 hours a day is not enough for me. I know, I very lousy. In fact, I'm a pig!! Oink oink!! =p

Grr, school work, school work and more school work! I really can't take it! I wanna have the brains to be able to doing questions esp maths. Sigh.. I love D and T because there is no wrong answer in it! Unlike maths, science, humanities blahblahblah. I really want the brains. Help me oh help me... Anyone there, please help me.

Sorry if I had made you unhappy in any way. Really didnt mean to do that. I feel that something's different already. Sigh. I was just frustrated by my work. Hope we can be like the way we used to be.

Back to work..

It was the 1st time in my life that I heard a really hard slap on someone's face. Well, I hope they're both ok now. Grr, BOYS! Only how to get into fights. For us girls, we have cold war when we dislike each other or whatever. It's not as bad as injuring yourself physically. Welcome to the real world! Filled with hatred, lies and worst of all, corruption.

Well, well, well.. As long as I can keep myself ok, not doing any bad stuff. I feel that everyone should be given a 2nd chance after realising their mistakes. It is if he/she is willing to change. I think the worst has still to come. Preparing myself, emotionally.

Meanwhile, spending time with jie jie makes me a more happy person! Someone whom I look up to and yet can be like my friend sharing whatever I like. If you're reading this, thanks for everything! :D

Off to mug. GRRRRR.

Gusto musicians with ATTITUDE

























We're siblings after all...























KIDS!

































Brenda dearie! :D

I ought to slap myself 1 million times! ARGH! I set the camera to 640 x 480 and they appear to be so small! #$%^$(*^%$!!! But nevermind. At least I have those photos.. Well, the performance was great! Didn't think my singing was that fantastic but I was proud of my facial presentation. Wahahaha.

Sang at 2 different locations..

















We were at this foyer where and the buses would come in. Feel abit strange because people were walking in and out.

















My loyal fans! Love you guys!

















I was the back-up vocalist for that song.


































My guy fans!

















Fans dying to take photo with me. Wahahaha!

















Boyband wannabes

















2nd place of performance.. Canteen. There were much more people there.






































Yeah had a great time as this was my 1st time performing somemore as a lead singer! I would like to thank the following.

Sishi- lending me your stuff
Gusto Musicians- for the fun! it's great knowing you guys!
My fans- for taking time to come down and support me
Mr Samuie- for organising this thingy and taking the photos
:D- for allowing me to perform! you have brought me 1 step closer to my greatest dream!

Well, yes I may be happy but I'm still very sorry for what I have done. I know you have not forgiven me. I really had a hard time putting on that smile while performing. Somemore when you were watching me, I felt so bad. I dont know what I can do in order for you to forgive me. I hope I have a chance to do something for you. I really sorry. I was too impulsive. I wonder how am I going to face you again. Sigh.

Ahahaha! I'm so excited for tmr's performance! It's actually kind of a last min thing. It's also my 1st time performing in a band! So cool okay!?!?! Still very confused of what to wear. HMMM. Well, hope at least I gain expirence and also CIP hours! WAHHAHAA. And we'll have lunch time concert too! WHEE! Everyone is invited to come and watch! 10 plus and 12 plus at concord primary!

And I will study. Wahahaha. Grr, if being in a band was my occupation, that would be so cool okay. Ahhhh.

Busy busy busy with excel busker fest performance! I can't believe it! It's actually my 1st time performing in a small band! Will be singing and playing the guitar. Thank you for giving me the chance to perform... I believe it will be something that I will not forget when I get out of secondary. Hahaha. But by right I should not be doing all these stuff. Well, just have to study harder. So happy! Not lacking behind in any homework! (except Chinese)

Actually I feel that the N level time table is kinda relaxed to me. But I cannot waste the chance! Must study 1 million times harder! And I will be able to celebrate my brithday on 4 oct eventually! Okok, meanwhile must study, study and study!

Anyone do support me in Concord Primary this Saturday morning at 10 or 1! My performance will be like 20 mins. Kinda short. But there will be exibits of BBSS there! So do drop by and support! Thanks! :D

I could not stop myself from using the computer so here am I! But I will be off as soon as I finish this entry okay.. I promise. Hehehe. Anyway, just came back from YMCA. Long time didnt have bs already. And finally, TODAY! WHEE!

School was alright lah. However some people are staring to skip lessons already. I dont know what to do. I agree that some lessons are boring but, you have have to press on right? Anyway, you're the one who will be taking the exam. Don't have the courage to tell my teacher also cos I have done it before. Oh well...

After school had the IT Map interview. The teachers were telling us to write in our Journal or whatever so I shall share about it. Hahaha. Kinda screw up at the interview. Boohoohoo. But really hope we can get into the finals and perform!!! I know I should not be involved in it as I am having my major exams but these are open doors to me lah. I gain real life expirences okay. And I'm managing well in my homework I think. (except Chinese) hahaha. No lah, but I'm bucking up in Chinese already. Listening so attentively in class. Blahblahblah. Whatever.

Some photos taken after class!












































































Lovely friends but I look gross. Ahahaha. Off to work!

I promise, after I blog, I shall take a bath and study! It's hard to stop myself from using the computer. I'm trying my very best not to use it. Anyway, did abit of homework in school already! :D

After school had oral. Urgh! Was so nervous can. I didnt know until this morning when I was reminded. We were like all chatting each other to keeps ourselves calm. And soon, it was my turn.. Hmm, I can't say that I did a fantastic job though. Ok, maybe it's better than the previous which was given by dearest Ms Tan kk. I seemed to talk more. But I did tumble abit and reapeated my sentence. Ahahaha. Hope I can get about 70%. (it's N level English oral okay) Maybe if I had shared more testimonies during cgm I would be more confident in the conversation part. HAHAHA. But it's OVER! Oh well..

After that had abit of fun and went home. Hehehehee. Ahhh. I wonder how long will it last. I hope we can always continue to go out together. Feel so happy when spending time with you :D

Guess my romm have returned to its original status... MESSY! Ahahaha. Feel so uncomfortable. But well, later than pack lah. Too lazy here to do so now. Hmm, at least I'm surviving here without dinner! I felt that I ate a lot earlier on. That's why I hate staying at home. Okok, cannot slag already. HOLIDAYS ARE OVER! Back to work already. Hope I can be serious again...

Oh, I forgot to mention that I already bought new school shoes! Hmm, but I feel that they're kinda kiddish :\ Is like what those primary school kids would wear.









































This is when you have too much time doing nothing at home.. Hehehe. Okok lah! I will study later on. Okay!?!?!!?

Hmm, I realise I have been not as thoughtful as some people in my class. Cos they bother about each other's birthday and plan what to do and blah blah.. But I actually don't really care. I was wondering why. Think too much about the cg's one until I neglect my own friend's one! Pity. About money matters... Erm...... Nevermind..

So, tomorrow school starts again. Here I come, facing the world!

OKOK! Do you think the picture is nice? Feel the song and see that picture. Ahhh... The sun is so beautiful. Everything's good except the humid climate here. Imagine S'pore is cold cold yet sunny. How wonderful. I love the clouds too. It's common that people would think that heaven is made up of clouds. It's beyond description lah. You have to feel it :D

Anyway, all thanks to Maddy! You're great! I'm not really a good model though.. Hahaha. All my photography skills vanished! Argh! Oh, more photos.

I love the sun rays there! Too bad, DOUBLE CHIN. GRRR!





















Beautiful trees behind..





















I felt so dumb and I smiled. Heh.






















There are more but I lazy update. Wahahaha. Hmm, if I'm sick of the photo I can change. Once again, thanks maddy! You've been of great help! Heehee.

Hahaha. Is today good or what? I tell you, service was awesome okay! You know, if people like Benjamin Liew mentions things like "gth chc", I tell you man. There are many points you can look at things. No offence ya. Hehe. But if negative thoughts are in your mind now, you're missing out a lot. Teehee.

Yay! Having a free day tomorrow. I bet I'll be dying of bordem. Already did my homework! I wonder what is my programme tomorrow. D and T teacher was telling us to go back to school to do D and T. I obviously will not be going back because of 2 reasons.

#1 How would I know if the school would be really open?
#2 IT'S YOUTH DAY! HELLO?!?! I DESERVE A BREAK!

and I can always stay back after school. I'm not really the go home early type. Hehehe. Maybe during choir practices I can stay back and do D and T so I have the chance to pop by anytime I like! :D

I missed my camera. It's so good to have you back! *kisses the camera*

It's just typical Saturday for me. Disappointing. I tell you, if I was in SYF I would be performing in front of 40,000 people okay!!! But anyway, some have to make sacrifices.. Imagine if I had to attend all the SYF rehearsals I would not be able to catch up with my homework! BUT, it's over and let's not talk about it. Well, before the actual thing, went to buy some M&M's to everyone who was performing. Just a little something from me lah. Ahahaha, didnt expect that they would be so thoughtful bombard my handphone with "thank you" messages. But I used $18 just like that!!! But they deserve something lah! For going all the practices. I think it drove them crazy.

Had cgm today. Was refreshed! Wanted very much to feel happy but I couldent. Until after cgm, when some of us chatted, I was so happy! At least I had the chance to crap around. Hahaha. In KAP, saw Ren Jie. I only casually told him that he was shuai (handsome) and every single staff in the counter and the kitchen laughed! I was so embarassed okay! About 20 people were there and they were woo-ing about. I kept laughing and laughing. But they didnt give me extra fries! Hmph!

I guess things are back to normal now. But I still say, I love you.... I just dont know why 1 person can make such a big difference in my life.