I hate facing reality. Why can't everything go according to my imagination? Why can't I get the things I ever wanted? My emotions always overcome me. Despite trying to put on a brave front, deep inside I'm so disappointed, crying buckets and buckets. Nobody can understand my situation. So don't bother saying, "I understand how you feel." I feel so tired of getting myself to think positiviely. I give up. Forget about my goals. They are unattainable looking at my current standard. Don't bother encouraging me not even in my tagboard. I'll not hesitate to delete them. All I want is to go to another destination and be by myself.

With another set of bad news. One person who impacted my life is actually gonna leave soon. Not leave(die) lah but she'll just be away and I'll not be able to see her already. I hope you're reading this. Really gonna miss you. Even though getting to know you wasnt the happiest thing in my life, still thank you for everything. I always wanted to do you proud but I really tried my best and persisted, but couldent make it. I've indeed let you down. I'll definately remember you once I see the things you're related to like geography, GB and usher. Hehe. I will cherish you for the time being, before the time is up.

Feel like swimming. It's a source of destressing and also helps me to become fitter. Now, it's very cloudy and I think it's gonna rain soon. Well, trying to force myself to swim twice everyweek! But the pool is so far away from my house! Have to walk one big round. Unlike other blocks, just right outside the life lobby. Hmm, maybe another time or tonight. Shall catch up on my sleep if not you'll find me sleeping in class again!