Hello people! I'm back! Heehee. Was studying and studying and trying to refrain myself from the computer. I have discipline one okay. Anyway, went back to school on Wednesday to take back the O level maths prelim results. I got a B4 for maths! Yay! I'm 80% elated but 20% devestated... Happy cos I improved tremendously from a F9 during the mid-years to a B4 considering that is only the 2nd time taking maths the O level standard. Kinda disappointed cos I just needed 2 more marks to get a B3 which is crucial to me as I would only get 1 point in my N level cert. Oh well, still, I should be happy with what I have. I WILL NOT GIVE UP! Obviously I will aim for something higher than a B4 for the actual O levels! Yeah!

Anyway, I'm in Sishi's house now. Brought some books and later we have a lil project to do. Heehee. I just can't stay at home the whole day. Need to breathe in some fresh air! 3 subjects that are in my mind... Physics, Chemistry and Geography. I am juggling only these 3 subjects for this study break. Kinda relaxing but I must make good use of it!

My birthday's round the corner! Whee. For once I can celebrate my birthday with my loved ones for the actual day. Wahahaha. Not forgetting the BBQ! Whee! So, so excited. But, at the moment, I should concentrate on my studies now. Whee.

I know I should not be doing it but I was day dreaming during part of lesson time! Was seriously in deep thought, thinking of ahhhhhh.... I even chuckled out of a sudden. Sishi, who was sitting beside me gave me that strange stare. Hahaha. I turned and just smiled at her. Actually lesson time was very fruitful because I copied down whatever the teacher mentioned. It is a natural reaction to many students especially when it is the last day of school.

Currently in search for a part-time job. I need to make good use of my holidays to earn some money. Not only will I have more money to spend but I will gain expirence, to feel how is it like to work. Not forgetting A and B! This is exciting! ^^

Ok, I will not blog that often. Maybe on Sunday, which is my only day off :D And I will have definately have something to share. Hehehe. Nicole, Maria jiejie misses you badly!

People, study hard!!! We must see each other next year in BBSS!

Woohoo! Just ended the 14 lesson Marriage Seminar! I was enriched by everything! Well, at least I know what situations couples will fall into and how to handle them in the most suitable way! I may be to young and innocent to know all these but definately I will need all the tips when I get married! :D At the last part, I cried as all the couples in the service renewed their marriage vows. Sooo touching! Dont worry, I will cry when I go through that too. Heee. I wish all couples the best in loving each other more and more everyday! By God by your side, all things will work out for those who love Him!

Took a rose from the stage after the service. Hehe. Everyone was rushing to get one. Haha.





















Isnt it beautiful? I'm kinda surprised people like me loves flowers. Despite they die quickly, I still love them! The flowers die... But the memories stay forever. Hehehe! Never mind, I sure to be receiving loads of flowers when I grow up until I get sick of them. HAHA.

It's You, You who have won my heart

Taken me into Your arms

Comforted me like a friend

Your love

Surrounded me from the start

I never want to be apart

From you ever again

Indeed, nothing beats your love. Thank you for everything you've done in my life. No matter what, you're still my first love :D

Had CHEC crash course... Finished half an hour early okay. Grrr. But also nothing much to cover much in metals. Hahaha. Anyway after that, made my way to jiejie's house. I think it was the best thing ever lor! Cos I met someone that I was dying to see for a year already!

Let me introduce... This is Miss Foo. She took my class for science when I was in sec2. You can say that I was completely crazy over her. Heehee. Those who know me, you would know THAT kinda situation :P This is a super ugly photo though. Haaa.






















Was making my way from CityHall to Sembawang taking the mrt... She boarded the train at Yishun. When I saw her, I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. As usual, I thought I was dreaming. Hahaha. It took me about 1 minute to approach her. Didnt want to make a mistake cos she cut her hair. She was sitting down, I stood in front of her. I asked, "Do you remember me?" She gave a wide smile and mentioned my name. I think she was surprised too to see me! Especially the mega change in me. Wahahaha. Cherished those 5 mins and exchanged our lives with each other. Sadly, I had to alight the next stop. $%^*#^&*!!!!! NEVERMIND. I am already thankful that I had the chance to see her. Grrr, never take photo or something like that. Hahaha! I know who to thank already. If I didnt go to Sembawang, I wouldent have seen her. Thank you hor :D

I also had the chance to see Nicole today! You lil cutie! She didnt felt as close to me the last time I saw her though. Hahahaha! Hire me to be her baby sitter please. Mark korkor was as crappy as ever xD Always asking me questions that I can't answer. Harhar. Went for service together with them. Teehee.

With the happy things going on, I have 2 things to be SOOOO angry about. GRRRRR. I BUAY TA HAN!!! Couldent stay throughout the service cos dad wanted me to pass him something before he leaves for Norway. Just a stoopid SIM card lah. Can approach me earlier right?! He made me miss the most important part of ther service! Sorry I couldent be there for you :\ My main purpose of going for that service is to give you support and cry for you. Hahaha. Sigh, sorry I had to leave early.

Was in the airport, HE WANTED TO TAKE MY CAMERA. Another last minute thing. Soooo annoying! I wanted to upload the pictures lor. He better not delete the photos otherwise I'm gonna kill him! Of cos I gave that unhappy face COS I WAS UNHAPPY. He told me, "You better watch your behaviour.." I cannot even be angry. What is this man?!?!?!?! Sometimes I think becos of my dad, I dont really show my true emotions. GRRRRRRRRRRR.. At least I can be angry here, right now.

Still, I thank God for the happy things that occured today :D N level is about 9 days time! MUGMUGMUG!

Today I was late for school! I actually woke up the normal time but I was very weak and lethargic so I went back to sleep for another hour. Was probably because of yesterday's tuition late at night. Ahh, have been late 3 times this year already! The good thing is that today is the 2nd last day of school this year. Well, the bad thing is that I might have tarnished my reputation. Anyway, I'm still sick. Unable to breathe through my nose and always feeling drowsy. Like now, after taking a long nap, I still feel so weak and tired! Hope I'll get better tomorrow cos I'm seeing Nicole!!! HEEEEEEE. Extremely intoxicated!

Anyway, did you realise the change in my language? Using expressive words that I don't usually use. I even having a dictionary right in front of me right now! Need to expand my vocabulary!Haha, yes new friend, the dictionary is indeed an interesting book!

Had 4 periods of maths. Was delighted that I made it for some questions but was devastated when I realised that I made a couple of careless mistakes here and there. Ahhh. Anyway, I can't be too confident. My maths teacher wasnt really impressed with our class as 50% failed. But, I'm ready to face the music and believe that I can do better during the actual paper if I work harder! Before I knew it, the bell rang for recess alrealy! I was rather surprised when we were dismissed. Heehee. This shows that I'm starting to love maths! Woohoo!

The response of my birthday bbq party is reasonably good. Except for some muggers who wont allow themselves to enjoy a few hours of fun or those anti-social people who would rather stay at home and stone around. Well, nevermind, it's alright. For those who would be coming, thanks for coming down and I hope you'll enjoy yourself! :D I am sincerely gratified ^^

Raar! Study time! :D

Hello! Yay! Trying to get used to the lifestyle of not blogging everyday! Well, it's a good sign for me. Have not been using the computer that often cos I have been going out TO DO WORK. Yup! :D I'm free from the bondage! -.-

Have been going out with jiejie the past few days. Hehehe. Always feel so happy when I have the chance to go out with her. Hehehe :D Just I thought that we would not be so close again after the June holidays, I was wrong... We became closer! Wahahahaha! I'm mentioning this because I'm not hiding anything and am not doing anything wrong. "guang ming zheng da" Wow.. I actually know how to use a Chinese proverb!

Today went to Holland Villiage! Didn't know that they sell so many things there other than FOS. Hahaha. Clique, we shall go there one day! I bought a pair of 3/4 quarter jeans (if thats the correct term you put it) Heehee, shouldent be spending money but I couldent resist the temptation! I cannot stand not buying clothes with jiejie already!! HAHA. Oh, saw a red and white polka dot tube dress. I LOVE IT OKAY!! Will be considering to wear it this year's prom night if I'm ever going lah... Shop, please keep that piece for me! Must pray that no one buys it. Meanwhile I will try to save up so that I can buy more clothes! Haha. *hinthinthint* Lalalala!

Here am I so sick physically but alive spiritually! It's not nice feeling sick anyway... After school, went to PS with clique to get some stuff. Feel so contented after getting the stuff. HEE. Most of them went home which leaves myself and Jasmine alone. We walked around Heeren and Cineleisure. I know we shouldent be doing that but I seriously needed to get something. After all the walking, Miss Ang suggested,"Why don't we go back to school for night studying?" I was keen cos at least I'll have the chance to do some work there! Can you believe it?!?! I passed by my house twice :\ Neglected my health though.

So we were there in school. I read up D and T and did the physics homework! :D Jasmine was having a relaxing nap under the air-con. So, I was like soooooooo bored because there wasnt any major papers coming up. I went to Mrs Quek and she allowed me to go home early! I was using my health as an excuse. Hahahaa! Felt so wierd when she was so caring and nice towards me. Scares me off. Mr Latiff then questioned me why I had to leave early. I replied using my Singlish accent and he corrected me in front of all the express people. Ahhh, there goes my face. I might be known as the 'cannot speak proper English' student :/ Grrr........

I begin to understand why I feel sick...
#1: Did not have enough sleep
#2: Ate and the wrong food like noodle omelete which is fried
#3: Drank Lychee Ice with green apple jelly ^^
#4: Stressed up????

Ok, I better have some medicine and turn in early. Otherwise, I might have to give school a miss tomorrow which I so don't wanna do :)

MY NECK HURTS TOO!!!

Today I had my maths paper 2 prelims. Was rather prepared and was not as nervous as paper 1. Stepped in the hall full of faith and did the questions like I would normally do during my revision. However, I left out a couple of question and gave some snip-shot workings when I completed my paper. Hope that these few questions might get me some marks. When I submitted my paper, there was a sense of uncertainty in me... What if I can't do that well? I kept praying and praying hope that a miricle would happen. Soon, I had a revelation... To trust God with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding. There's always a purpose in every single thing. The stress level decreased. All I knew is that I had to study and do my best and God will handle the rest. Be it good or bad, it's still for a purpose someway, somehow!

My birthday is about 2 weeks time. My ultimate wish is to love people fervantly and unconditionatly. I hope I'm in the process of reaching my goal :D

Hope my little card has made you feel a bit more happy. I'm always there for you! Everything's not your fault too k... Though I may not be that superior in your life, I really hoped I had touched you. Love ya :)) *huuuuggggggggsssssssss*

I shall share about Saturday. Well, in order to make myself feel less guilty, I studied in the morning! :D Completed a maths paper 2.. Hee. After that had cgm here. Was about communication!! Very pratical and interesting ^^ Then, I went to Sishi's surprise birthday BBQ. Hey gal, hope you really enjoyed yourself :D

We were early so we walked around the park... Wanting, Peixian and Lejin!





















Bataya Ang Wan Qing! xD




















Whee! :D




















Precious moments. Hehe. You better thank me for the great photography man!




















Present time! (sishi's such a poser!)








































Me and Shaoyu. We wore similar tops. Haha. Strips...




















Like that also fun to pose...




















Similar belts :D



























The birthday gal and me!




















Having fun = exercising!! ^^



























I went home the earliest though. Heehee. See, I'm such a good girl! Guys, don't play too much too! STUDY HARD!! :DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISHI :D -LOVES

As I gaze at my friends I feel so jealous. There's a certain thing I really lack I must say. I go behind people's back and mock at them. But deep down I'm just simply, jealous. At the end of the day, I'm still at the losing end. However there is a will inside of me that keeps saying,

"My time will come"

No worries, I can wait. Meanwhile, make me stand strong. I never want to be too impluse. Teach me in your ways........

Had a rather interesting dream last night. I was one of the main characters in a play. Was very excited in acting. Hehehe. However, I forgot all my lines during the show. Please lah, I didnt even know what was the story about. There was not even a single rehearsal okay. Ok, maybe it's a lame dream. NEVERMIND.

Caught a movie with mommy... a rather interesting movie!

This story is about the diffierent people in the family aspiring do achieve their dreams. I really like it because it's seriously Singaporean. Benjamin Liew was telling me, "I never like local films" but wont you be sick of watching ang moh movies all the time? Besides, I think the story line is so closely revalent to some families here. The father struck lottery worth of 2 million dollars. Everything was going smoothly until the father died unexpectedly. The family fell apart. There wasnt a happy ending lah. Sian~~ Anyway the mother reminded of my grandmother. Hahaha. As I recalled like 10 years ago before she had her stroke, she was almost exactly like the mother! Always nagging and nagging but at the end of the day, she's caring about you... Yup, hehehe.

Ok, I shall ban myself again... Having maths paper 2 prelim this coming monday! Study!

Got something really interesting to share!! If you find that I have a sudden interest in maps, this is the reason!! :D

My school!

























My House!

























My brother! Wahahahaha!














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I'm very happy about what you've told me today! I was tearing with joy! I actually can't believe it... Maybe I was only dreaming -.- But I will study harder and mantain the standard! I'm looking forward to make you more proud of me! *hughug* Hehehehehehe! Now I have more confidence in myself. I fear no paper! :DD

Having CHEC tuition later. So far~~ But I believe that I'll learn something! Hehe! Woohoo!

Today I didnt eat for the whole day due to some reasons... Mommy surprised me with all the good food on the table when I reach home. I was so touched. It's worth it. Especially when I was drooling when someone was eating pasta in pasta mania right in front of me. *faints* Anyway, thanks mommy, your cooking rocks!





















Going to catch a movie with her this Friday! The thing I like is that I dont have to fork out a single cent! Hahaha, other than that, quality family time :D I realise that I have to really treasure my family members. 50% of them is not in Singapore. But nevermind, we're still united! Thanks to technology, we are able to communicate daily! And when they return home, better! I'll devote my time to them cos I hardly see them.

Super tired again... Yawn yawn yawn.

The maths paper was actually ok. I thought it would be harder than what I usually practice with. After the paper, I smiled ear to ear and whispered to myself, "Maria, I have done my best and I have no regrets!" Well, I dont wanna think too much on how well I'll do because I might just end up failing the paper -.- I hope not :S Anyway, I've done my best! It's never the end of the world and life just goes on........ *recalls my choir conductor saying that sentence* It's really inspiring. No matter what setbacks we've encountered, we're functioned to stand up again!

I admire people who always fail and keep trying again rather than you do well all the way. Life would be so boring! The real lesson learnt is that you be strong enough to accept your failures and try harder the next time! I have encountered these situations many times. Oops :P

I find that I'm beginning to talk crap. I'm bored that's why. I shall have a lil nap before studying again! :D

while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
2 Chor 4:18

Ok, I've did a lot of work and I deserve to be here for a little while. Having my maths paper 1 prelims tomorrow. Ahhh! Really stressed up (as usual)... Had night study in school. Wasn't happy about certain things though. However, no matter what mood I am in, I still have to practice my maths! Cannot allow these little things affect my future!

Heard that there is a probability that my band(drastic turnover) might be dispending(sp/gr). Not that it is said openly but just the attitude of some people, my manager might just fire all of us -.- If so, it will be very disappointing because we have some performances that we have yet to perform. I will be sad lah, if you're almost there, but slowly the dream dies off. Besides, my dream came true because of my band! How can I afford to not perform anymore with those wonderful and funny people? God, please do something......

I cannot believe that I can get so affected by what some people say to me. I always try to tell myself that they don't mean it but I still get so worked up on it. Why am I that sensitive? Still, those words you say affected me badly.

Today choir had physical training before the actual practice.. They ran 4 rounds from the sidegate to the maingate. Hehe, so fun. However, I was disturbed by a certain netball girl. Shall not mention her name. I know that we choir people are not as fit as you all. So what if they run slower and block your way? You can simply overtake us right?! You don't have to give that kind of face. EGO, EGO! If you think you're so great, why don't you sing a proper tune? Bet you cant!! I really despise people who look down upon my choir members. For now, you have created a bad image for yourself.. Go shoot the ball in the net lah. Nobody bothers to see your skinny legs anyway. By the way, I'm real excited about joining choir again! So many upcoming concerts! WHEE!

Been having dreams about the new school premise near my house! So excited! I can walk to school already. Give me more dreams!! Yess!!!

Better sleep early. If not I'll end up sleeping during the paper!

Ok, I promise, right after this I will do my maths and will never come back after Wednesday!!! Today, had an awesome time with the cell group after prayer meeting. Hehehe. The few of us went to the food fair in expo! I hope that we'll have more of these activities! :D

Angel and Phoebe with Yuki!! So sweet!




















Saw Shan Jing! Missed her so much! :) She's so pretty now!




















Phoebe and me... She bullied me so I gave that crying face. Hehe.




















The few of us posing with Mango snow ice. Yumyum!




















We finished everything! Duh~~ Very expensive one okay.




















I decided to do something naughty. With the encouragement from the people of course. Hehehe. I took out some food from the bin and ate them! Urgh, I look fat in those photos :/

My cheeky smile..




















Eating the thrown away food!


























This was accidently taken. I was physically abused! Funny~~




















She's the abuser! Poor me...




















Wow. Had a great time... Hehe. At least I can say that I did enjoy my sep holidays for a short while. School, here I come...

Was watching service online and in the midst of praise and worship, I decided to rest for awhile... instead, I fell into a deep trance. Mommy came in my room and said, "Wow, they worshipping ah?" I ignored her, shut down the computer and went back to sleep. And guess what I dreamt of... I was in popluar bookshop in search of maths papers. Was super tensed up. I did those paper like never before and also dreamt that I sat for the maths exam. Ahhh!! This is driving me crazy!

I have an upcoming maths O level prelim which is super crucial to me. It will be taken as an N level subject. As you know, prelim papers are usually harder than the actual one so extra stress is added in. Managing the paper is one thing, but managing stress is something I cannot dodge. Well, I'm only one of the thousands of students taking major exam in this phrase of my life... God, please guide me in every step I take. I still exist here because I want to glorify you! Maximise my time and brain power...

Ok, I would not be blogging that often from today onwards. However I hope some of you would still faithfully read my blog! :D

Woke up early in the morning to meet someone for breakfast. After giving a wake up call, I went back to sleep. Hehehe. By the way, if you need a wake up call, I'm the right person. Hahaha. There's no such thing as oversleeping for me. Haha. Had breakfast in Chinatown. I forgot what the place was called..













After breakfast I went to Bukit Batok to meet up Jasmine. While waiting for her, I saw some of my choir juniors. I think I'm really a good actor. I told a white lie and I didnt laugh at all. Hahaha. Sorry for lying guys :\ Headed to Bukit Timah Shopping Centre to have a game of pool. Played for 1 hour only lah.. Felt so malu cos I wasnt really a good player. Hope I didnt spoil your mood or something like that.

The "condusive" environment.













Woof!













Then, Jasmine, Shi Jie, Eugene and myself went to KAP to study! Was happy that I did 1 paper one. But still have some blanks :P Also did some other work and spent about 3 hours...

Evidence!






























Eugene had no discipline at all. He was complaining after 1 hour. ShiJie and him left and we continued for awhile. So I decided to cut my hair cos I couldent stand the thinkness of it. I'm not sure if it was worth it. Hahaha. Cos I only trimmed abit and layered it slightly more. I like it when I tie up my hair though. Hehehe. Wanted to star gaze at Science Centre but the conditions were not good. So Jasmine and I met up Carlos and went to IMM. Some photos we took while waiting for the rain to stop in BK.



























After today I better mug already. I shall spend every single hour studying. No more "rest times" okok, super tired! SLEEP!

Went to the airport to see my brother off. Well, he's my brother after all. And I'm his only sister. No doubt I will miss him but still, that toliet will be all mine! Muahahahaha! Whoa~~ With the 2 males hardly in the house, who can I look for when the computer encounters problems? :\ Oh well, we women will emerge! We can survive without man!! :DD

When he was checking in, the airport staff mentioned that his luggage was overweight. Everything was worth 39kg! It exceeded by 9kg and if you want them to pass it, we had to pay $70 per kg which is super crazy. So, we were digging out some stuffs from the luggage. HAHA, you should have seen the senario man. My dad was taking out his breifs and he folded them again properly. I helped him lah. Many people were staring and I took the chance to cause trouble by teasing him. In the end, my father managed to create a lot of space in the hand luggage and he could bring everything(all the packet spore crusine) to Germany! Yeah!

Photos in memory of my beloved brother...

It's been a million years since our family had a photo taken together...


























Saying his last few words...














The lady below is aunty Kat. She was nice enough to see my brother off too!













Malcolm and me! I wonder how we 2 would look like after 3 years. Hmmm.













Last words from mommy.














Well, he's just going through part of his life. I hope when he returns, he would be charming and please, slimmer! I also hope his hygiene level will increase. Haha. I dont mind having a German sister-in-law though... Haha. Imagine my nephew/niece would be a mixed blood. Whoa. Cool~ Ok, lame, thinking too much already.

Auf Wiedersehen, Bruder Malcolm!!!

Wanted to do some maths but was too drained after the 2 papers. Studying was one thing. But the stress level caused me to be so tensed and I used up a lot of energy getting stressed. Hahaha. So, I was slacking at home (which i didnt do for a very long time), took a nap and disturbed my brother!! After tomorrow, no more chance liao! :(

Late afternoon, had BS at KAP. Very happy because the last lesson was 2 months ago! Was enriching. Got to know more about demons. We live in a broken down world... We don't run away from them, we fight and command them to go! Yupyup!

There is this term my friend always uses which is GG (good game). Because in a game(like dota), the losing party would say GG after they lost. So now it signifies that you're dying or rather, you're in deep trouble. Right now, I feel like saying GG one million times! Arghhhhhh!

Ok, I better do some maths revision now before I end up crying during the mock exam.

I love maths!! (yeah right! :\)

So cool talking through my new friend through the webcam! HEHEHE! Have only seen her once after we got to know each other well. So thanks to technology, I can see her now and whenever I want!! Ahhhhh..













She caught me doing this :\ (was on ourpose lah)

































She looked more like a ghost...













Try to act cool with sunglasses too. Urgh..

Wahahhahaa! Have not been online for 2 days already and I'm still alive! This shows that I have discipline! :D The 2 papers were ok lah. Well, BY FAITH, I can do well! And of course with hard work. I really desire to reach my goal.Anyway on Sunday, had BBQ for my bro! Went to Yvonne's house after service(i was lazy to travel all the way home by myself. hehe. so smart right?) Read and recited and the SS points until I was so sick of it. Helped Yvonne in her blog and duh, took some photos!!


























So, we travelled to my house... Everywhere we go, we would take photos! This is to maximise the use of the camera ok. Make buying the camera much more worth it.













Painted my toe nails!!!













During the BBQ, was surprised to see TingYong! Wahahahahaha!













Cousins :DD












































The lovely hui sisters! I have known them since I was born I guess. Hahaha.


























My long-time-no-see cousin, Wan Jun! She lives in KL so I hardly see her. She's so pretty!













And I went back first to prepare myself for the following day's exmination.. Was super nervous. Prayed and prayed...

So, the day was here! CHINESE PAPER! Was unfamiliar with the stuffs like we had to paste a barcode on the answer booklet, write what type of dictionary we used. The teacher never go through these with us before. The hall was freezing cold. I'm not a cold-blooded animal okay. BRRR~~ After the paper, felt relieved! Completed one paper!! Yahoo!

Had no choice but to go to WestMall to get some stuffs. After that went to study at Macs. Wrote some SS points down again. Never mind, I shall tolerate it for one more day! And we started chatting about the past and our future. Nice to share things lah. Makes you wanna focus on what you'll be doing.

Today, went to school early for Chinese listening. So cool! MOE used radio. I didnt know they would always use that for national exams. Interesting! After that, waited for 5 long hours for the SS exam. Studied with Murray and Benji. Was happy that he came to join us because he's the top student for SS and taught us a few points.. Thanks Benji! Finally, SS paper was great! I know I have already put in my best! Did the bestest best I could! Hope I can do the same to all papers!! :D

Thanks for those who smsed me with greetings. Really appreciate it. Was very motivated when I saw your smses. People like Josephine, new friend and Mr Jansen! Thanks guys!