phrase of the day

The wise shall not entertain spoilt princesses.

Well, I guess I have been making a BIGGGGG mistake over the years. Means I wasnt wise then. Ya, my fault, I was the most stupid girl giving in to you. No I am not blaming you, I am blaming myself.

PS: Shouting very loud dosent mean you win.

Feeling really uneasy now. I hope I will be strong enough to go to school tomorrow. I'm very sorry for sleeping. I forced myself but I just couldent be awake. I'm very, very sorry.

photos to share

If you want the photos just take :DWith da jie da. LOL.Janice, JiaYu, me and ShuHui above!!Current choir without the graduating seniors. Doing sound check.Me and Mommy with super think makeup!The sisters... Thanks for coming down!!Teachers' STOMP! Unglam. OOPS :P:P:PCute part.Drama!! Aisah in red. LOL.Me and Dad. I'm taller. MUAHAHAHA! He liked the band the best.Hug, kiss, cuddle :D:D:D Look like same age hor. HAHA.
Little did I know that I can fulfill so many of my dreams right here in BBSS. I could still remember I was very neutral when I got my posting here. And after all these years, so many great things happen to me! I mean other than the solo part and all that, the role I play in choir and even GB, having DT and many more. I will step out of BBSS a different person. This school has changed my life.

I wonder when I get into Poly, will I receive the same treatment? Will i be able to do so many great things? Well, but no matter what, I'm ready for anything! I must lead an extraordinary life!

Ok, stop dreaming and start doing work :D Won't be blogging till National Day I guess? Hehe.

summary

Hoho, my dad recorded my whole performance so I am able to watch it over and over again! So I would just to share how I feel about my performance. Hmm, my sound wasnt there. I know I can do better and stronger. But my feeling and expression was definately there, I put my heart into the song. Wooo. I hope today [or I mean yesterday] would repeat itself. But its alright, being able to put up this performance is not easy I must say.

Hope those who watched the evening show enjoyed my part! I promise, next time if I have any chance to perform, I will be better!!!

For those who were involved in the concert, yay! I'm sure it was a great show! At least we played a part in helping BBSS raise funds for the school :D Sad that I'm graduating so I wont be able to partiticipate in more events. Hehehe.

Three cheers for metamorphosis!

Today was crazy! Really crazy! Had oatmeal for breakfast and didnt have my usual recess. YUCK! The feeling was horrible! I was planning to go on an intensive diet as I would wanna look good on Sat. Even though it is super last minute, just make do with the time left. Hoho, so had I had oatmeal for breakfast, soup + fruits for dinner! Tomorrow will be the same but no oatmeal please. Makes me so bloated :\

That's it, after my prelims, I'm going shopping for clothes! I seriously can't stand my current wardrobe. Anyone wanna join me? Hee. Probably a day or 2 only!

Saturday is drawing nearer. I'm really, really excited and nervous. I either put up a great show and impress everyone or let all of them down. My ultimate dream is finally coming to past. Phew! And I actually thought it would be impossible. Of cos thank you to that someone for fulfilling my dream :)

Jia you choir too! Make our performance the most remembered one for the concert! Pssst! We actually have an advantage other than drama cos there are 3 dances, 2 instrumental but 1 vocal group! The most important thing... FEELING!!!

Yeah, yeah, so after this concert thingy there will be no more distractions! I am so going to study from 2pm-5pm and from 8pm-10pm! 5 hours a day! Time to complete my maths homework! Urgh.

Toodle-loo!! :DDDDDD

before i nap

Saturday: Metamorphosis rehearsal. I had no time to do work at all! Don't really like being in big groups... Takes a lot of time to be in order and all that. That's why I don't really have time to study. Oh well.. Hmmm, I hope I'm ready for this Sat! I'm actually very excited!!

Headed for service. Was late but reached in the midst of worship. Service was awesome! :D Glad I didnt miss it because it was heard the rehearsal would have been delayed. Saw my beloved cell group members! Did not see them for a week already. However, I could not join them for dinner and I rushed to Aeclyn's house for You Peng's birthday celebration.

Refer to clique's blog for more info! But we had a great time. Ate a lot of yummy steamboat food, after played games like never before. Haha. Laughed a lot. Then, sang birthday song and all that. Each of us said words of appreciation to the birthday girl and some of them were crying! But its cool. Got home at about 1 plus in the morning. Oops.

Sunday: Woke up, changed and got ready for the DT boys to come over for some last minute practice. Practiced till 1 and we headed down to Heeren to meet 1 more boy. Ate lunch and got ourselves calm.

Performance was ok. Thanks a lot for those who came down! Hope you didnt waste your time. Hehehe. I think this time round was better than the new year's eve concert. It was good also as manager was not there to guide us and all that. But finally I'm free! One performance down! Hoho.

Stayed awhile to watch my Primary school friend(met him there coincidentally) and Joleen. N380 dropped by too. Have fun chatting with them before going over to cousin's house for another steamboat :D

Ate and ate. Got home and dropped dead..

the good had to go

Yes, the day that I dread the most. It is hard to accept the fact that someone so dear to you has to leave and you wont be able to meet up or see the person as often as before. Sigh.

One simple reason why she is so dear to me.. ACCEPTANCE. No matter how imperfect I may be, she encourages me a lot and accepts me the way I am. I find it hard to get this out from people my senior. I wish she would replace Malcolm :/ Oops. Haha. Will I ever come across anyone like her once again? She's my 3 in 1. Hehe. Lover, sister and friend.

Today's Racial Harmony Day. I wore a head dress. LOL. Was kinda paiseh at first but I slowly got used to it. Racial Harmony Day is about understanding each other and ya, I understand how it feels like wearing it.

Ok, need to get back to work. Having a LONGGGGGG weekend. Tomorrow, rehearsal followed by service followed by clique gathering. Oh yah, ATTENTION!!

DT performance this Sunday, at Youth Park. Do come and show some support for this event if you're free! Starts about 4pm. See you there!! Do not hesitate to approach me when you're there. A friendly "hello" would be lovely :D SEE YOU THERE!

saved a life

It was raining cats and dogs [and i mean cats and dogs] soon after flag raising. Everywhere was flooded, including the little drain just outside my class. I was staring at the big pile of water until I saw an overturned dragonfly I scooped it up and dried it as it was soaking wet. Augustine and I did that little surgery. LOL. We thought that it was dead. But I didnt care and helped it stand up and twiched its wings so that it'll move. Here's a photo of it!Very big right? That's my palm by the way. It flew off when Auggie let it off in the window. I realised most of the boys were more afriad then the girls. They were running awaay and dodging from me. It was hilarious. I wonder how they survive NS :\ Well little dragonfly, I hope to see you sometime again! Fly away and multiply! :D [ok, what a phrase]

A.maths flooding my mind right now :\

drifting away

Nothing beats a nice strawberry yoghurt drink while "fellowshipping" my guitar on a late Tuesday night.This is definately my kind of relaxation! Ahhh. Pity I have to sleep in my room tonight. Mom went to sleep in my Brother's room. It is a miracle! Because my mom usually dare not touch anything my brother touches due to his low level of personal hygiene xD

Just returned from my 3 hours worth of studying in BB Mac. It feels so much more fruitful than slacking at home doing almost, nothing. Studied for SS test and did a lil D and T. Yes, it might be little but I am starting my engine running. An engine would take some time to start running you know. I still remembered I started my engine last year only after the prelims -__-

Right now I just feel like I have jumped out of this ferry into a small boat. Not sinking though, but drifting apart. It feels horrible. I hope this month will go by quickly! :( Have to make so many sacrifices. Ratsss.

I do unto people, wrong.. People do unto me, right. Not even a "________" from you. But what can I do? Nothing.

Ok happy things. I'm going to be tucked under my comforter so tight in about 10 minutes! Woots. You are the weakest link, goodbye! [my bro used to like this game show. dont know about now]

fatal dreams

Today we had the 1st rehearsal for 'Metamorphosis'. One word, TIRED! I was pratically just running about, eating and studying. Yes, I didnt study a little. Yay. I hope choir did enjoy my crappy-ness and jokes. I like to make them laugh :D I love their riversong. It's so river-ish. HAHA. But I hope they can feel more and think it beyond just then performing it. No comments for Dancing Song though. No saying that it's good either. I'm just sick of that song. Been singing like since November last year. Must grab hold of that kind of feeling then can do well. Seesh.

Managed to have a lil tech run for my performance. I was actually quite scared. At the same time, my heart was melting inside my body; my dream had finally come true. Like what I saw in my vision, pitch darkness with a bright light shining at me as I was performing. But more than that, I hope I'll put up a good one and impress the audience![dont be surprised if I tear. KIDDING!]

I just started thinking about so many things. I felt as if people around me were giving me a cold shoulder. Or am I too sensitive? I just want people to know that my heart is so true. I still wanna be the bubbly, loud and friendly Maria. Not the super serious, stern and hostile kind. I didnt know I had to go though so much in order for my dream to be fulfilled.

I hope next week will be better. I want to maximise my potential!

dreams

I didnt know pursuing a dream would be so tiring. It's not the actual thing, but the preperations that would be tiring! Doing my best in whatever I can.

God is my strength..

studying outside

Haha! Whee! This is so fun, studying outside with my classmates at night! Just completed my A.Maths worksheet :D Going to do English, but first, I have to warm up my English by blogging! LOL. Yeah!! I think studying outside is real cool. I used to study here at Macdonalds with Angel too! Reminds me of the past. Hehe. We discussed some Chemistry too. Felt so assured after explaining and learning from my friends :) Gonna do this often. Hmm, but need to waste money buying food and all that :(

Photos! MUAHAHHA! Pretty Violet and me.

*photo met with some problem.. will update soon.*

Shao Yu and I discussing Chemistry questions :D Are you gals jealous? I dont know why but so many people are attracted to him. zZzzzZzz. Whatever lah. But he's a good classmate to me!! HOHO! BET YOU ALL ARE REALLY JEALOUS :DDD

Ok, back to work.. I must make this time fruitful!

back...

For the past 3 days, Chinese teacher let us watch "I Not Stupid Too" A very touching story. Nothing beats Singapore comedy where we actually laugh at ourselves! I cried 3 times. Too bad I'm not in that kind of situation if not I can relate to the movie. But anyway, WELL DONE! The 1st time me enjoying Chinese lessons :D

Performances coming up. Will let you know the details soon :D I'm excited! At the same time, I'm really worried that I may not put up a good performance. Other than the audience, nothing else matters. Nevertheless, practice makes perfect. After July, I'M FREEEEE!! [to study :/]

YES, YES, YESHHHH! Going out with my lover this Friday! Hohoho!

my strength

God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Yes, I will remember this sentence.. I'm really so busy now[and I still have time to switch on this computer and blog]. I just can't continue with things at home without checking email, checking up on friends and blogging! Grr, no worries, however. Computer time will reduce as time goes by! I think I have made a SLIGHT improvement! Prolly tomorrow I wont touch the computer AT ALL because of late night tuition. YAY.

Okok, talk about me being busy first. Performance, studies, performance, studies! I thought I could just give up performing this year... I actually quitted my band for 'O' levels. But then again, I had a revelation and decided to join back again. Doing worry guys, my capacity is being expanded! And I promise that I'll do the best I can for this exam! Believing for 4 distinctions.

Cgm was awesome today.. I mean I may not be so much in my valleys now, but I'm still reminded that God is being there for me. Sadly, I couldent like be 100% worshipping and all that. I hope one day I can learnt the skill of 100% ministering yet 100% worshipping :/ Sharing was about we going through preperations and that it takes time, involves failures and the importance of responding to it. I didnt expect that the atmosphere would be so "BAM!" I HOPE I did play a part in it.. Just cant get the song out of my head! I hope I have a lot of time to just worship for hours and hours. Ahhhh.

Woo, a brand new week! Hope I dont get so much afternoon naps and would do more fruitful things INSTEAD OF USING THE COMPUTER! Yeah, I'll try to do it :D Wish me the best!

Need to get a bigger Bible to motivate me to read more often. Haha.

BACK TO WORK!! A.MATHS ROCKS! :DDDDDDDDDDDD

home alone

Ok, yesh I can finally sleep now. When I came back from serivce, I realised my mother wasnt at home. I decided to wait till she comes home. Waited and waited till it was past midnight. I was worried sick. I called her hp but it was switched off. Was telling one of my friend how worried I was and then,
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I remembered she went Batam. HAHAHA. So forgetful of me :\ Okay, can sleep now :D

Now channel 5 has this concert thing. "ANSWER THE CALL" They have too been showing tons of advertisments about "if blahblahblah, then we'll save blahblahblah" I feel like telling them, "If you didnt have concerts with thousands attending all over the world, you would save SO MUCH ELECTRICITY"

Oh, but I learnt a morse code. It goes like this.

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"S O S"

And I wore green today!! :)

Hmm, I think by using the computer I'm using a lot of elecrticity.. So, off I go!!!

Horray! weekends!

Presenting dearest WanTing and I!! :DD [Veri Good!!] Hahaha.I just can't stop making fun of her. It is easy to joke about her. I dont know why :) Always willing to help people. Not forgetting, always making quality checks on goods for me before I purchase them xD

Yay! Tomorrow it would be my first time hanging out with clique on a Saturday! Hope we'll have a great time! Going to play spongebob Monopoly at Acelyn's house. Muahaha. My first time playing with them too. We're also going to da bao food over to her house. Fun!! Heh.

Talking about Saturdays, for the next 3 weeks starting next Saturday, they'll all be gone just like that! :( I might have to give service a miss :( But the best is that if I can leave early. There are going to be rehearsals for the school's Metamorphosis concert! Not sure if I have to be down actually. Heh. I hope I can cope!

Just need to stay back one more day after school for D and T and my artefact would be done!! Hooray! Then I'll do my folio perfectly! Woooohoo. Will show you the artefact once I take photos of it.

Going out with my lover next friday! Really excited about it!!

Ok, shall continue my English compo since I feel like writing NOW.

busy

Noticed the new header or whatever you call that? :D Didnt spend a lot of time actually. Haah. But I think is reasonaly nice. It shows the different sides of me. Not the pretty side, however :(

Anyway, I have been so busy with school and DT! I really wanna get less involved in DT, but I cant, it's a commitment. I think I just need to learn to manage my time well. Not bad already, I wasnt online earlier on :D So yar, after this post, I shall do my work! Phew! Homework keeps piling in. I can do everything. But do you know I need? TIME.

Visited the new place earlier today. SO NICE!! :DDD I'm pretty excited about it. Heehee. I'm going to spend my young adult days there. Hohoho. [so no link -__-]

The Saturday thing is upon WanTing's approval. Hey, I nan de can come out on Sat right? Bring it earlier lah :((((((((( I can't wait to play Spongebob Monopoly!! YAYY.

Having 'O' level Chinese Oral tomorrow :S No matter how worried am I, I shall believe that I can read the words fluently and answer the questions with a lot of confidence! I can do ALL things!!! Of cos I would be delighted to get a "Merit" grade. Did I tell you? Sec2, when I was having Oral, I actually cried in front of the teacher cos I was so scared -___- So let's hope nothing unccessary should happen. YEAHH!

reflection

A very guttlonish photo of me. This we taken 2 weeks back! But I believe my cheeks are smaller now!!

So why am I blogging here at this unearthly hour? Reason: Cannot sleep!! Couple of things are in my mind right now...
1) A.Maths homework cannot do some :(
2) Chemistry TYS not completed. I had to redo all as I lost the book :(
3) Can't I just get any slimmer?! :(
4) I hope my weekends are not always so hectic :(
5) There's still a burden to complete the D and T artefact and folio :(
6) Haven packed my school bag :(

Ok, something more happy to share...
1) I did Chemistry for an hour in the bus on the way to tuition! [1hour]
2) Had tuition today :D [2hours]
3) Looked up for Ms Lim for Geog map reading on Friday! [30mins]
4) Watched Hi-5's new season today!
5) Didnt have proper meals. [ok, maybe that's not a good thing]
6) All ready for tomorrow's DT practice
7) Bought a sandwich from 7-11 just now for later when I walk to school :D

After this entry, I won't be online so often already. I have set a timetable for myself. Hope I'll really follow it.
2pm-5pm: Study in school
5pm-7pm: Go home, watch TV and bathe
7pm-8pm: Dinner+Slack+Packroom [dinnertime varies, depending on my mother]
8pm-10pm: Study!!
10pm-11pm: Use computer or whatever
11pm- Bedtime. Time I sleep depends too.

I just hope I won't take any naps in the afternoon. Really a waste of time! Yawn.. Ya so anyway if you wanna catch me online, I'll be there at 10pm! I'll be studying 5 hours a day. Which means (5x6=) 30 hours a week! WOO! NICE!! MUST F.O.C.U.S!!

Had a funny dream. I was dreaming I was blogging. LOL. Maybe I should type it here. Probably it's something from the very bottom of my heart.. It went like this.
"I dont know why have you all chose __ instead of _____. Definately _____ is better than __ through my 5 years experience!! Unless you are aiming for 1 thing. To become the ___ of __. Whatever. What so big about being a ___?! If you like controlling people then you might as well play The Sims. Prolly you all have been blinded by it. All I can say? "Pity" I only liked the great peers [not seniors] I made there."
Whoa, people can hate _____ why can't I hate __? Fair share right? It's ok if you dont understand what I am talking about. I write this for memory's sake. Haha.

Ya, right now I want to dream that I'm having a concert. LOL. So goodnight.

celebrating my youth

Yay! Happy youth day to all youths!! Today I had really loads to reflect about my life. And come to think of it, I think I had a really awesome youth and I believe that better things are coming my way!

For example, if I had not met so and so[whoever is it], my youth days would be boring. If I had not come to THAT place, this life of mine would be VERY different. Glad I made that decision and chose the right path :D Even though there are so many things to do, but well, that's expanding my capacity! Yeahh!

One thing that I'll remember about my youth will be being part of DT. It has always been my dream to perform on a stage. DT made my dream come true. Hoho, thanks to queen for this great opportunity! You should know who you are ;D

Tomorrow's task, stay at home for the whole day to study!! Hope it'll be fruitful!!