Under Pressure

Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure - that burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
Um ba ba be
Um ba ba be
De day da
Ee day da - that's o.k.

Eh, seesh, I think I grew fatter! Look at my fatty cheeks! :/ That means I need to start my "plans" once again. It is very terrible when I need to start from square one :( But fret not, results are always sastisfying, however for a few weeks only :P

And yeah, I had my sound card audition today! I didn't know it would be so serious... I thought it would be something informal as this is a new CCA. They had waiting rooms and nunber tags.

Yes, I am human. Of course I was SUPER nervous in the waiting room! Glad that SiShi was online to cheer me on ^^ She definitely made me more relaxed. The senior in the waiting room kept playing the audition song over and over again. Instead of singing along, I harmonised and I think the people around me felt I sang out of tune.

Finally, it was my turn and I found myself standing in front of more seniors! There wasnt any minus 1 track and I had to sing without any music! It was alright though, they cut me when I sang after the first chrous. I learnt the whole song for nothing!!!

Next they asked me if I knew other English songs and I sang "If I Ain't Got You" as it was one of the English songs I performed before most recently. I hope it went alright. Thankfully I didnt go pitchy according to what I heard as this is honestly a killer song.

Lastly, they asked me what music instruments I could play and I picked up a guitar and started playing THE USUAL "My Happy Ending". Felt much better playing as sound card seniors were more appreciative than GC. So well, if I get into both CCAs and if they clash, you should know which one I will pick yeah. Heeehee.

I'm glad I did somewhat my best for this audition! Hopefully I can get in *prays hard*. I loved the audition expirence too! Those butterflies in my tummy and hands shivering (i know, i'm sadistic). I getting rusty actually, I need more exposure!!

Critical thinking the is World's most difficult subject. People say it is very flexible, with no right or wrong answers and yet there are lecturers telling us that we didnt do correctly. Poly is indeed tough, even in nursing. It's an ICA mind you!!!

Pressure!

Busier

Desserts at Swensens on Saturday night! :D The guys are too shy to face the camera!

Ahh! That's better!He's definitely not camera shy!Posing as Alakazam xDSingapore is terribly hot!!!! I'd rather freeze in the cold with my ears going to drop of than to perspire after a bath! Argh argh argh. Everywhere is so stuffy and I feel sticky all over. At least Mr air-con is here to help me out! :D

Having sound card audition tomorrow! Going to perform my best! Wish me luck!

To my daughter :)

Hey girl, I'm not really sure if you are reading my blog always but I hope you'll come across this post yeah? :) Besides the weekends are here. But your exam is on Monday! So I'm not sure if you'll see this. Heh.

Anyway, I just wanna say that I have not forgotten you girl!!!! And I really miss those times we spent together, even through if it wasnt a lot. I'm not sure if you consider me your close friend a not, but to me, you are indeed a SOMEBODY in my life! :D Oh, I really, really, really miss smsing you! I also enjoyed a lot in those accidental sleepovers you had over at my house :)

Something feels really different after we have sort of stop being in contact with each other. And I really wonder how you are doing now. I'm not sure when we can go back to how things used to happen in the past... I understand that where you are at now is not controlled by you, and there is nothing much you can do, right? :( But it is alright, I am looking forward to that day again!

Right now I feel like I have lost my "daughter". Haha. But really, I miss you girl :) And all the best for your exams!!! Study hard!

Updates...

Ta-da!!~ All the chinese Singaporeans in my class :) Shu Xian and Ling Li were donating blood and we camwhored while waiting for them!The most important factor in a new school are friends that you make. I'm indeed glad to know such sweet girls here! And boys... LOL. So, I love you guys!

School is slowing getting busier and busier, including all those extra activities. I went home yesterday when it was dark! Due to the guitar ensemble concert actually. Heh. I love the whole group playing together! It rocked! After the concert, we had an audition and I was the 1st one to show my stuff! Well, I played my usual "My Happy Ending" and cut me off when I sang the 3rd line. I think they felt that I was in the wrong CCA. But for me, I do love to play in the ensemble. Woot! Still pending if I should join guitar club though...

Today, Sound Card called me! They also sent me an email with a song that I am supposed to sing for the auditions! Means I need to learn a new song, within a week! Even though being exposed to songs, blahblahblah, I must say that this song is not easy, so I gotta learn it well :) I thought sound card is just some secondary CCA, like gusto but apprently, they treat this so seriously and I have to dress nicely during the auditions! So, I better reach my peak and do my best! Wish me luck! (^_^)V Oh, by the way the song is 'Remember me this way'... I confess, it is a difficult song.

I have been having stupid senarios when I realised both my NYP student card and ez-link card had someone else's face on it! I fainted twice can. Hahaaha. People kept teasing me, asking me if I went for any recently plastic surgery -__- Well, at least I need not pay extra or something to get the photo changed. I shall forgive the admin office. We always do make mistakes :)

I am just getting this feeling that I might have also seen my skills lecturer somewhere in my life before... The 1st time I saw her which was also the 1st skills lesson, she said to me, "Have I seen you before somewhere?? You look very familiar to me..." Obviously I replied a no and dismissed that question. As more and more skills lessons passed, I thought she looked familiar to me too! LOL. Esp when she taught us how to wear that mask. I might have seen that face before. So today, I learnt that she used to work in NUH! Could she be one of the nurses who looked after me? I was thinking really hard after school today, closing my eyes and recalling the days I stayed in NUH. But well, this is just my suspision lah... I mean I would have a one in a million chance of having someone who nursed me being my lecturer, right?

After school today, I went to my Dad's office to meet up with him! Saw all those office people I used to work with :) I was really nice to see all of them smiling at me. Hehe. Oh, erm, some supplier bought 3 boxes of donuts from donut factory and I ate 4 pieces. MUAHAHAHA! :D Waited for my Dad for 2 hours -__- But I was glad I studied skills and biology! Whoopee! We went to Jack's Place for dinner and did a lil shopping at Raffles City. Well, I'm glad that I am able to spend some quality time with him because he is flying back to China tomorrow for another 7 weeks! Phew!

I love my life now :) Busy busy busy!

Good Company :)

My sub group :) We rock! MUAHAHA. Having fun while doing our project!

Amelia and PeiQing!Xiao Ping was using the library's computer. Hehe!Hawa and Lianya!PQ and I.For dinner, I met clique for dinner. Woots. Loads to talk and share! They are the best best best!The only possible to take all of us was to use the toilet's mirror. WE HAD NO CHOICE!

When I am so crushed and dampen by other stuff, these peers sure made my day :) They keep me smiling. I love all of them! Including my classmates!

Have I let you down? It wasnt on purpose. It just seems that the more you believe me, the more I upset you...

Pressure coming in

Just finished a little revision and preperation of tomorrow's lesson! Phew! A lot of independant studying in Poly! Tiring, tiring!

Have I become a bookworm?! Mommy and myself went to Vivo city to wait for my Dad so that we could send him to Batam... She asked me where I wanted to go, and we ended up in PageOne. I dont know, I just wanted to look for books, be it novels, the atlas or any anatomy books. I like. LOL.

Peeps from our class went to play badminton and I met a lil accident. While I was just playing a little bit while the others went to changed, I fell backward and landed on my head. It was seriously the most painful head bump. But at least, I managed to stand up and didnt shed a tear. Still, it's really, really painful!!!!! Thankfully right now I do not feel nauseous or giddy, or else I would have concussion.

This is seriously making my eyelids heavier. Byebye.

ROCK ON!

Like wow... I managed to watch 'We Will Rock You' with blessing from my parents! YEAH! Woots! Anyway, it is an awesome production! First time getting involved in the musical by clapping our hands and waving our arms with the songs. Hehe, machiam like rock concert. This was also my first time sitting at the stall seats in the Esplanade! I was like giving "loser" signs to all who sat at the circle seats. MUAHAHA.

I didnt know that rock music ROCKS. Because I usually appreciate more of like classical and erm, not so rocky stuff. But now, I think rock ROCKS. I was really blown away by the band, who strictly played only rock instruments namely the electric guitar, bass guitar and drums. It was just different from any other west end musicals.

The guy who played the role of 'Galileo' is like soooo hot. Haha -__- However I prefered the ensemble where they danced and sang to "Radio Ga Ga". It would be like so cool if I could just simply be in the ensemble of such a production. DREAM ON. Haha.

My house is so noisy now :) Feels more like a home. Ahhhh.

Excited

Finally, got this orientation photo! I love NR0811! Woots! Heehee.

Anyway, I'm really excited now.
I will get to see Mom and Dad once I wake up.
Seeing Mom after 2 weeks,
and Dad after 5 weeks.
They are in the air now...
*prays for journey mercy*

Service was unbelieveable!
Dr Kim's message was simple yet it touched my heart and spurred me off to do greater things!
Most importantly, the anoiting was there.
And I love those simple songs she composed :D

I can't wait for tomorrow(today)!!!
Happy happy happy! (^_^)V

My Story

Well, I guess some of you didnt know why I decided to take up nursing. This post will explain everything and if I ever lose my passion, I will look back into this post to remind myself what sparked of this passion :)

As you can see above... My left forearm. A scar that will tell a story. When I was 9, I fell from a monkey bar and fracture my forearm. Hence I had to stay in the hospital for operations and observations. Through that, I had seen how nurses worked and how much a difference they have made to make a patient get better.

Well, I met some good nurses like before entering into the operation thetre, they would comfort and make me feel calm, because I know always that I will wake up with a pain at the operated area. OUCH. But still the smile and concern they brought made a significant difference to me. I feel more assured and relaxed.

Of course I did met some not so nice ones like when I was scolded by one of them in the middle of the night while pressing for the call bell and asking for the time because I could not sleep! She scolded me lor! Hmph! I know it is kind of unreasonable but certainly a patient's well-being is much more important than the convinience of the nurse. I have learnt something, to serve patients willingly, at all costs! :D

I begin to observe nurses more and admire them for their boldness to see gory stuff and the patience to look after troublesome people. Muahaha. I am enjoying lessons now, as I begin to understand the complicated structure of the human being too! Cool!

Today, for skills we learnt how to wash our hands, THE PROFESSIONAL WAY, wear masks and aprons without getting contaminated by the germs from the patients. Shall end off with this photo! I am really, really happy with what I am doing now :)

NYP Club Crawl 2008

It is exactly like CCA showcase. Well, for the first time in 5 years, I am finally the one choosing the CCA instead of pursuading people to join mine. Heh.

I was rather disappointed that my desired drama practices are held on Saturday, where I would obviously be not free. Somewhat it is kind of a sacrifice hor :( But it's alright :D Let me finish my story!

The school voice ensemble was not as impressive as I thought. Watched their performance... Heh.

Being so upset about not being able to join drama, on impulse I wrote my name down onto guitar ensemble, I was asking questions on it, after nodding here and there, the club member just placed her arms over my shoulders and slightly pushed me nearer to the booth and I wrote my name down. There will be sort of an orientation so I will be interested to take a look! :)

Finally, I saw this newly set up CCA, called 'sound card'. It is a club for singing, song composition and involment in musicals, graduation performances blahblahblah. The thing that came on my mind was, exposure to the stage. So yep, decided to go for it, I wanna have more exposure! I wrote my name down. They asked for what I can do and I wrote singing and guitar. They asked for past performances and I wrote all down, fearing that if I write anything lesser, I would have a lesser chance of getting in. Then, I felt so bad. Just so afraid that those who will take a look at the paper will think I'm a show off. But I would really love to get in :) EXPOSURE! YEAH! There will be auditions anyway, and I simply love auditions. Hehehe, I like to be judged.

Seeing that 'sound card' is quite popular, I think guitar ensemble will be my back up CCA if I dont get into 'sound card' :)

Well eventually, I hope for the next 3 years, I can enjoy my campus life at NYP! Yay :D

Having a slight headache now... Probably after hearing those loud music at Club Crawl. Time to have a lil nap!

NR0811

Some photos of my new class :D Waiting to get into the tutorial room for lesson! The Mommy of the class, Xiao Ping :) I love listening to her stories.Olinda.. OOPS, I mean Amelia. Hehehe :DLessons are getting more and more in depth... New stuff to learn and group projects to complete. I feel afraid when lessons end early... Less teaching, more self-studying to do :S I which I was back in BBSS :/ However my class has made school a better place to be in! Hooray!

My Home Alone Adventures

I was doing some research and I found out that this is a mircoscopic photo of a human face. Ya, I can see that this person has many blackheads...

Gotcha! It is actually mouldy bread -__- FOR THE 2ND TIME, I have to clear up mouldy bread. It seem that history has been repeating itself.

When Mommy was away 3 years back, there was mouldy bread left on the table too. Urgh! Today, the unexpected happened also. Just when I thought moving into a new house I would be free from the lizard encounter at the toilet when bathing, Mr Lizard turned up again. It occured too, years back when Mommy was not at home, AGAIN.

After discovering and screaming at the lizard, I decided to follow Matt's instruction by chasing it away with a broom. Too bad, it didnt work. Thanks ah... Instead, the lizard hid at some place where it think I wont chase it anymore... Being paraniod and all that, I sprayed water at the corner the lizard hid. Guess what, an upside down cockroach flowed out with the water. EEEEEEEEEK! Is my new and clean toilet that disgusting?! Then, my evil plan work.. I poured bleach onto that roach and it died within seconds. MUAHAHHAA. The thing is, I should have done the same with that lizard! ^#$^&&*(%$@ Now, I am just worrying how much eggs the lizards and cockroaches have laid. Sian...

Today's prayer: Lord, please help me to overcome the fear of lizards.

For viewing pleasure, Hui Yu and I! :D

The 2nd day of school was good... Learnt many new things. I prefer tutorials and lab lessons to lectures because I prefer to be just with my tutorial group! Bad thing, bad thing. I do at times say funny things and laugh during lesson time. Oops. Bad, bad, Maria shall not be the joker. I should try hard not to laugh at my jokes too. *breathes in, breathes out*

My Dad used to be a lecturer... I really wonder how he conducts his lectures. If we were not related, would he be a good lecturer to me?

Mommy and Daddy, please come back soon and help me kill that lizard.

Schdules, schdules, schdules!

I which I would be lost in time...

Everything I do is according to sechdule now! Byebye hoildays! No more 'depends what time I will wake up tomorrow' or 'tomorrow then decide lah!'... I am bonded my something called sechdule.

Today, I had my 1st lesson about Psychology. Fullstop.

I am learning how to study now because I threw all my skills away Nov last year. And here I go again for the 1st time after 5 months...

Maria don't use the computer so often!

Complains

So yup, tomorrow is the BIG DAY! Hmmm, actually I always get excited when it is the 1st day of school. However, this year felt different. It wont be the same old usual friend I can disturb, those teachers I can smile evil-ly, the various aunties and uncles working in the school who I will always greet.

I need to think of what to wear every morning. Pffft.
It takes at least 45 minutes to reach school.
I don't have SiShi to sit beside me :O

To make things worse, Mommy wanted to push forward her return to this Tuesday. It got me more excited. Then today, she decided not to. Zzzz. Which means another week of home alone. Ahhh!

And, my family friend's grandad passed away yesterday evening :( I ever smiled and talk to him before! Mom wanted me to go over to the wake on behalf of my whole family, as ALL of them are not in Singapore. Me myself also wanna go, to pay respect... But, that family's Mommy dont allow me to go as it is not safe to go alone blahblahblah. Thus, she refuses to tell me where the wake is held! ARGHH! Of course I dare not go against her and argue because people may be not emotionally stable?

But no matter what is happening, this tune repeats itself in my head :D

"I trust in You,

I trust in You,

I trust in You,

With all My Heart"

Pictures, finally

Finally got some photos to share! Heeeh! Me and Yvonne :DWe were supposed to go to Swissotel Merchant Court for buffet lunch as Yvonne's mom had some voucher to it. We could not eat however because we are not allowed to use it. SIAN. So instead, we settled for Waraku! I simply love chasoba and salmon don!This happened yesterday... Heh.Today I met up with Sishi for lunch! Hehehe. We were like wondering when we will see each other again... DONT WORRY LAH SISHI! SINGAPORE IS SO SMALL! Borrowed a book so that I can read it on the way to school, instead of playing that mindless PSP :)

Thinking of signing up for vocal lessons :/ Realised that my singing deproved ALOT. Sian. Now, I know the importance of choir practices... Siansiansian.

Hooray! Tomrrow will be the 1st day of school! Can't wait! The sian thing is that school is 1hr away from home. But I'm sure it is all worth the travelling.

Moi Orientation :D

Actually, I wanted to wait for them to post my group photo onto their multiply website so that I can show you my classmates for the 3 years but I doubt they will do it until like, next week or something? So, sorry, no photos for this post again! Haaah.

Anyway, orientation was super duper fun! The best thing is that I made new friends and I can really talk to most of them! The day started with some presentation at the auditorium. I SAT AL THE SAME PLACE FOR THE WHOLE THEE HOURS. Could not sit still at all. My group, NR0811 was assigned to sit allllll the wayyyyyy in front and we all had to lift up our heads to see the screen and ouch, my neck really, really hurts :/

After that we had lunch followed by games... I am proud to say that our group is really sporting, enthuastic and not spoil sports :D We practically clapped and cheered for everything done well :D There are people in the group with their different cliques already, but still alright lah, we were more or less still mixing around :) I could talk to almost everyone! Just maybe not some of the malay girls? Because they kinda sticked among themselves... At least I could talk to those plus-sized basketball girls(reminded me of a friend, doreen), some of the malay girls, the china students(due to mixing around with the chinese during my oriental work), those quiet chinese girls and a st Gab guy with a malay guy xD

There was a station game where we had to play taboo.. Hehe, I guessed most of the words and I was so paiseh after guessing correctly the words continusly! :P So ta-dah! Imma proooooo in guessing words. Hehe, TABOO QUEEN!

One of the girl, Pei Qing, that I got to stick with most of time is really nice :D We have so much in common which includes the subject combination we took for O levels, the points we scored, and most importantly, the passion we both have(becos 2/3 of the peeps tool nursing as they had no choice)! Yay!

I liked my parents naming me 'Maria' as almost all of them know my easy peasy name :D But I started to hate my parents naming me 'Maria' as my group started shouting my name, making me blush... Pffft.

So yes, orientation day was a blast and I can't wait for school to start on Monday! Yipee!

I wish I am somewhere else right now rather than being at home :(

Had you ever wish for something so badly, the thing comes to you and yet, you dont want it anymore? :/ Hmmm, it is not that I do not want.. It is just that I dont think I deserve that? I dont know! Argh!

I Like Sleepovers!

Erm, I guess my posts are getting more and more boring :/ But it is good I suppose? Because I am into many people reading my posts. NO PHOTOS TODAY! BECAUSE I AM WAITING FOR YVONNE TO SEND THEM TO ME!

Sleepover was a blast! Heh, even though we didnt do much. Just saw each other's photo of our respective trips to E, as she just returned last week. We were like comparing and sharing our expirences over the night. Heeh. Ok, I wanna complain!! We both visited the Mirabell Gardens, Yvonne, 1 month after I visited, in Salzburg, where the children from the 'Sound of Music' sang 'Do-Re-Mi'. Well, when I was there, the garden was all fenced up due to works I guess, but when she was there, she got to stand on those steps and walk through the leavely shelter! No fair!

We had to turn in quite early as we needed to wake up early for Yvonne's interview at NTU *faints*. Got lost, and we were frantically looking for the place as she was late!! However, the interview went well, according to Yvonne :D

Went to various places which I am obviously too lazy to describe.

Tomorrow, I will be having my orientation! Honestly, I am really, really excited! New friends, new environment, new way to go to school, new things to learn, new food to eat there but old primary/secondary/neighbour Matthias :D

Ok, time to rest my head for a busy tomorrow!!!

See, I told you most posts are boring. Don't read, don't read. Haha.

The Loner's Story

I have been home most of the time on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday except for meals because I obviously NEED TO EAT! Well, I just feel weird however being so alone and all that. It really reminds me of my lonely moments in E. But why? Why do so many Singaporeans, including myself cannot live a single life? Are we too dependant on our parents, partners?

When I stayed in a hostel in Edin, I came across 2 ladies in their early 20s. To be exact, I shared the same room with them in the hostel. WHICH WAS LIKE SO WEIRD BUT COOL.

Ok, one was an American, took off from her work for a few months to travel around certain parts of E. She had been travelling for a few months already. The 1st thing that came to my mind... HER LEAVE IS REALLLYYYYYY LONGGGGGG. Through my observation, I could see that she has settled her transportation and all that but didnt plan her tour like until she reaches that city? Ok, when I was there I also didnt plan anything until I arrived there, hehe. But Edinburgh was a tourist-sy place. And I would be like super alone for only the 3 days. In her case is different, so many months! I applaud her!

The other lady? Better still. She was from Australia and wanted to take a break from Uni for A YEAR to settle at some ulu(not really ulu lah) place on the other side of the Earth?! She was trying to look for a job while staying away from home. Also she was like, "42SGD a night in the hostel is likeeee sooooooo cheap!" *gives the "it is so cheap" expression* Where did she get the $$$ from?! And she is willing to pay money to stay away from home for a year. (maybe she dosent like home?) Or is that how all the ang mohs live?

Probably my mind is too narrow and I needa see and expirence more things. Heh. However, I do understand that ang moh kids my age move out and no longer stay with their parents.

Now the question...
-Do I follow the ang mohs, and be very independant?
OR
-Should I just stick to the Singapore/Chinese culture of sticking to my parents.

Like for example 10 years down the road, unmarried. Will I continue to stay with my parents or move out and lead my own life?(still staying in contact and visiting my parents once in awhile)

Of course, that is not for me to say now but I'll see how it goes :) I wanna have a ring ok?

Ok, STOPPPPPP!!

More about life NOW! I have been doing a couple of housework like making the kitchen look nice, scrubbing the toilet(my bowl is so clean that i can still smile while put my face directly in front of it) and vacuuming/wiping all parts of my room! (Other places need not be touched becos mommy kept it sparkling clean before she left :D)

So I was right, my aunties keeps checking on me, even more than my mom does. But hooray! I am going to sleepover at cousin's... Followed by shopping with cousin on Thursday! So just nice, friday I will have orientation, weekend's out and Monday is my big first day of school! Yipee!

By then I will be too busy to be alone. I like!

Timetable was out yesterday, my Monday lessons are like 11am-1pm...(good after being tired out from the weekend) And my longest day would be Tuesday from 9am-6pm. Realised too that I will be studying psycology which would be the least interesting subject to me. It feels weird not studying maths AT ALL too :/ Whatever I have learnt in secondary school is of no use to my diploma. Arghhhh! When I studied for O levels, I studied for the knowledge ok! Not for the grades! (Maybe not, hehe :P) Another point of view, I learn new things! Woohoo! Can't wait for school to start!

*goes to play the newly-stringed guitar*:D

In this pink world of mine

I was just packing up my room and I discovered a couple of pink stuff. Heh. I'm not a pink lover though. Seesh! Even my blog skin is pink! :/

Purple-pink hairdryer :) Pink bed sheet.
This is a gift from Phoebe :) Almost finishing the book!
My pink pink panther book.
Lastly, a photo of Violet, me, Shayne and Acelyn!

Ok, back to cleaning my room!