Not that I'm emo-ing, but I just wanna express myself rather than keeping them all inside me! Well, I've been working in the gynae ward for 2 days already. I feel more useful as a student nurse there compared to obs!
But, sometimes it's real depressing to see certain things. I mean, it's a life? How can you just kill it, just like that? I understand certain special cases. That I can accept. But how about those who simply wanted to have fun? Heartless people, you just killed a life.
I saw with my own eyes, the little hand that could possibly be an alive baby in a few months' time. Imagine that the little hand could grasp my finger. Now, it's all lifeless, ready to be buried, burnt, used for research, whatever.
No personal grudges for me. Tomorrow I got to continue working with a positive working attitude. It all stops here.
No matter what may come my way like those horrible shift work, difficult things that I may have to do, getting blamed for the things others had done, seeing unhappy patients and many more, I still want to become a nurse. Why? I just love my job! :) Must I have a reason to love something?
I'll remember to be strong! :)