The Weekend

Hello!! Sorry for not posting for so long.... Blogger didn't allow me to post photos. But anyway, I'm back! Heehee. Ok, sorry, some self-obession here. Hehe. On Saturday, celebrated Aunt Mei's birthday! Isn't it cool? 2 layered cake! Yummy, the flavor on top is martini with something and the flavor below is chocolate orange.Me and the newly weds. (Just kidding)

Beloved Aunt Mei :)The next day, Sunday, went to YouPeng's house to celebrate her 19th birthday!!! Had steamboat! Yummy!The funny marsmellow cake WanTing baked. We were all blunt with our comments :PUS!!! :D Sorry, had to leave early, but it was great seeing you all!Then, I had to make my way to meet Bernice at YCK to proceed to watch 'The Musical'!!! And guess what we saw in the train..Yup, a pigeon in the train!!!! It left some fecal material or urine on the floor. But I wonder why did the train service staff didn't fine the pigeon -__-The musical was awesome!!! Shikin was like WOW!! Though I enjoyed myself, I was feeling a little nostalgic on how much I have been though that made me wanna withdraw from the ensemble :( Oh well, it's over now!!!Shikin with her "Dancing Queen" costume!!

The flowers we bought for her :)Then, we camwhored in the toilet...

Syuhada... We were friends then, but not NOW!!That explains why I am so tired this week... Other than going out and all that, projects, studies and performance were flooding my mind! At least for now, it's kinda over. I hope to have more time at home to do some serious studying!!

Today marks the day that I can eat fastfood after one month. How did it feel? Hmmm, while waiting for the staff to place the food on my tray, there was a white flag waving in my head with the "devil" staring right at me. It mentioned, "You need me!" After eating, I actually didn't feel any sastisfaction. Hmmmm. Strange. Hahaha. Well, I think it is the process but not the finish line that affects and changes my behavior.

Ok, enough crapping... Time to get into the lab to practice my BCLS skills!!!

Blogger is argh!

Something is wrong with blogger! I can't do up a nice post with such a deviated format here...

Stay tuned ok! A lot has been happening throughout the week :)

What a week!

Highlights of the week: Musical Lunchtime Performance @ NYP... Thanks to Cass for taking such great shots! Kinda first time close up shots are taken of me while performing. Hehehee. The classic faint :POk, dress is too plain! Was shopping for something to wear the day before but I could not find anything suitable. Oh well. Haha.Ping's Pink Party (PPP)Enjoyable moment captured :)Another BIG Sunday ahead of me. Gotta crash now! Need to wake up at 6am! :(

Say hello to yet another week!

Dancing craze on Wednesday and Thursday, all in preperation for National Day! I have never seen such a bunch of enthusiastic people before! But yeah, we're gonna shine on the 29th :)Performing this Wednesday for the school's lunchtime concert! Hmmm, actually not very keen due to the poor acoustics. But I hope it'll be good! :) I need to "practice" more for my audition! Sorry SC guys for the reaction I have give you all but I think I should be thankful for every performing oppurtunity, so thank you for giving me the chance!

Other than that, I am going to take the stupid retest and I WILL PASS! We will all be getting our exam timetable on Monday, so I am gonna mug hard and push up all my grades! Urgh! Determination, that's what I need!

Talking about determination, it has been 19 days to my fastfood fast! No doubt it has been hard facing all the temptations. But I think it's cool lah. Practising discipline! Maybe internet fast the next round? :)

I have the strongest urge to get this phone...Then, the thought of having so many phones at home is killing me! Okok, I shall just go with the flow :P One disadvantage. I cannot serectly sms in my pocket cos I would require to hands to type messages! But an urge is an urge...

Can't wait for next Sunday to watch 'The Musical'!!!!!!! Meeting up with 38club as well. It's been AGES since I last saw them! Phew!

Before I hit the bed...

Something that can put a smile on my face :)

2 weeks into fastfood fast

I must say that this is an achievement to me because having a Macdonalds in school is so tempting! Btw, I miss McWings. Heehee. I am so going to buy it on August the first.Suckers, you can't tempt me! Muaahahaha! Subway is considerd healthy right? I kopped abit of veggies only!

I kinda feel lonely out of a sudden. Maybe because of JingWei's departure. Like we can't chat on MSN(time dosent meet), sms, meet up, eat and talk! Oh well... Why am I complaining?! She's more lonely, but thankfully she feels alright to be alone.

That's life...

I had to trash it out

Me? Fail?! Because I took the wrong syringe?! Come on! It's like in a baking test, I used a spoon to whip the dough instead of the whisker! Not even a second chance. Was talked down as if I came to nursing in vain. (I strongly think I am rational and not defending myself)

Bias, she was bias. Her OWN student, didn't comply to the aseptic technique and she still passed. Aseptic technique is more important than just one stoopid syringe. What's more, the units were similiar. Even if I injected using that to a real patient, I believe he/she won't die. But how about the aseptic technique?! All the stoopid microorganisms enter the body already!

I could not help, but broke down. I have never cried/sobbed in front of so many people for a long time. Is it entirely my fault? Lecturer's fault? School system's fault? If it's my fault? I didn't read notes properly?(NOTE: The notes didn't write about not choosing that particular syringe) Lecturer's fault? She didn't warn us about choosing any wrong syringe that will be placed together. Besides, during practice, the syringes were opened up already. Like me, an amature would know? School's fault? That I only knew about the test in the morning? (ok, i was prepared for the test, according what the teacher taught anyway)

I cried because I felt upset. Why can't a human being cry? Oh, I know why, because you're heartless, so you don't cry.

She had to fail me one way or the other. Offered options to her. Still had to fail me. I begged her, like some hopeless child. It meant a lot to me. Does this show I am not competent to be a nurse? So what if I have the passion? I know I'm careless(born with it) but I was extra careful, realising my weakness.

She mocked at me for my lousy maths calculations. I didn't dare to calculate mentally. If I did, and got the wrong answer, wouldent it be worse? I really do miss teachers who encourages me on maths, like Ms Ngiam.

During confrontation, I was thinking, "What for you say such harsh words to me? No wonder you all desperately need nurses in Singapore. Look at how you are all treating them?! Even the nurses themselves(who think they are damn smart) are doing so." I will change it. Yes, one day I will.

This world is so funny, isn't it? On one hand, people say, "Come on, you can do it! You have the capacity to do all these! I believe in you!" On the other hand, "Why are you over-confident? I think you have too much ego." So, where do I stand?

[To my future patients: I'm going through all these because I wanna have the skills to care for you guys. When you are sick, I wanna be there for you. I don't gain anything from all these(except rice in my bowl).] Yup, this makes me feel much better :)

After the test, the first thought that came to me was, "WHAT FOR I GO FOR OPM?!?!" But another part of me had to go for it. And I'm glad I had no regrets :) OPM was a BLAST!

Retest, bring it on! I know the "mistake" and I'm gonna do the best out of it!

Done, thank you for reading!

Good Morning!

Ignore my fat face. I started my day right by turning on the computer -__- Not exactly, was just organising some of my notes and practiced a bit on injections! Having a test tomorrow! I have to pass! So, I gotta do some serious study in the library after lessons.

By the way, the photo shows myself, Vanessa and Valerie! Soundout was fun especially with the airband competition. I observed the people laughing till they were falling off their chairs and that included myself! Other than that, Valerie's Viva la vida item(hums to the piano part) and the dance item were cool! Great to see the talents of DT zone!

Well, that's all for performing. (URGH, maybe not!) I'm needed to perform for Musical item for lunchtime concert! Ok, yes it's good and blessed to perform but, let's hope I still can manage my presentations and tests at the same time yeah.

Time to have breakfast! (Mom's calling me out already) Get ready for Mental Health Presentation and OPM! :)

Ouch, but still pressing on with a smile! :)

The Month Of July

I realise there is a trend over the past 3 years. It seems that July is the month that I always perform!

July 2007- Some band performance at Youth Park & secondary school fund raising concert
July 2008- Lunchtime performance in NYP & NP Klavierensemble Concert at Esplanade
July 2009- SU Commissioning, SoundOut and The Musical(if I had not back out)
July 2010- ???

So exciting! I remember I used to count the number of times I performed, but I lost count. Whatever it is, I am enjoying everything about it! Thank God for every single chance! It used to be a dream.... Right now it's a reality!

Since Health Informatics lecture in the afternoon, I have yet to submit 2 overdued assignments! :( No mood to do at all!!! What a spoiler for such a lovely weekend.

2 days...

YAY US!! :D Do watch the performance video on facebook! Ok lah, even though there were a few mistakes (esp in my guitar strumming), the arrangement is nice right? I heard one of the song for the first time on Sunday! We took 2 hours to arrange it, and we took 2 days to practice! That's all! Difficult to memorise you know! But well, I thought it was delivered well. Syu and Bernice sang almost perfectly. Heehee.

Though it may not be some big event with thousands of people watching, every performance is an experience.

A special thanks to Charis and Jasper for coming down. Knew that you guys could actually play pool earlier but you 2 still were there! And to Shikin, for being such a great "manager"!!! Yes, you do make a good one for artistes :P

I'm glad I am in NYP and in SoundCard :)

Maria's Back!

On Thursday, we had a very successful SoundCard outing at Marina Barrage!! :) As the organiser, I was a lil worried about the poor response(bad experiences from SNA's event). It was good that everyone had fun!!!!!!!! There was too much food that we had lunch and dinner there! We had random activites like ball games, kite flying, singing songs, playing with water and camwhoring!! Well, YAY! Heehee. SOUNDCARD ROCKS.Decentralised service was good as well! I learnt as much as I could over the past one week. Just wanna thank the few for giving me the chance :) Not only that, I think everyone who contributed in every aspect did well! Though being only 2 zones and one of the 16 services in the church, we were comparable to established churches(in my opinion). Heeheehee.

After service our zone youths had Taste of Freedom(TOF) activity!!! More than enjoing the food, I believe we have forged greater bonds with each other. Presenting the winning team!!!! :)Holidays are over and school starts! Urgh, I don't feel ready. What's more there are a few upcoming performances in school these 2 weeks. Let's hope I can manage well and my studies won't be affected :(

Oh, almost forgot! Had a good webcam chat with JingWei! Good to hear that she is still alive(ok, kidding!). Hmmm, feels good when I can talk to her on MSN. It is like as if she's is in Singapore! Yup, thank God for technology!

I'm loving every moment of my life!! Counting my blessings...

For JingWei...

Right now, JingWei is somewhere up in the sky above Indoensia. I sure will miss her... It was too hard to believe everything. I do feel for her. Imagine, she's totally alone! Wandering around, making brand new friends and doing her own house work! Heehee. Most of all, she finally got her chance to study overseas. Thankfully I managed to take one last photo with her.

I am sure her leaving is a big lost to the cellgroup! Ok, I think I was super bad. Over reacting when she was leaving. Even her family members didn't behave that way. Hmmm, I guess it's because she did play a big part in my life.I'll just get used to it. Well, we can always email each other! And I can't wait to visit her this September!!! (The school better let me!)

JingWei! All the best in whatever you do ok! Whenever you are lost, in terms of physical directions or you're stuck in a situation, remember to pray! I'll be thinking of you fondly! Lastly, remember to watch 'Wicked!' HAHAHA. I gave you the wrong place but you can check out this link :)

http://www.marrinertheatres.com.au/wicked_main.jsp

Last but not least, a "bimbotic" moment...

Day 3 of E-learning

Ok, I have done up like 70% of the e-learning stuff... Actually, I'm kinda lost. I wanna go back to school! For some modules, it's quite fruitful but the others, I'm just reading through. Not even sure if I totally understand or not. I guess I prefer to be in lecture halls highlighting and adding lil notes into my lecture book instead of reading powerpoint slides and surfing facebook at the same time!

When I return to school. There are going to be full of project presentations, theory and practical tests to be done. URGH! I can die anytime, but just not during the graded activities in school! Well, I think I'll survive :) Please, no failing at all!

Ever wanted something real badly, almost got it, but didn't in the end? I did. I guess I need to be more humble. Sometimes, I wished I had taken back the words I have said. I need to criticise less, and be more edifying. Man, why do I have to always learn things the hard way? I mean, not as if I wanted fame. Well, at least I was blessed enough to be one of the 20 that was picked over the hundreds(or maybe just 100) to come back for the 2nd audition.

As everyone's been saying,
"There is always the next time."

:) I will train myself hard and will be back! Though the circustances I may encounter in the future(example: work) would not give me much chance. Meanwhile, I should concentrate on Saturday! It's gonna be so cool! So happy to have the chance and I'm gonna learn as much as I can.

Oh yes, I'm gonna be on a fastfood fast for a month. Reason? I watched "Super Sized Me" and I feel that I should not patronize the fastfood industry. Can you imagine, when I become an adult, all I see is fastfood? No more fish soup bee hoon, chicken rice, satay bee hoon and many others? What's more their food is unhealthy! I know it's gonna be hard, as I really love MacDonalds' french fries. I'm gonna stay away from very sweet beverages like Coke as well.

Anyway, when I was young, my parents didn't bring me to have these junk food at all! If not, once or twice only. So I think I should be able to survive for the next one month :) Oh, and thanks for the great response in facebook. LOL. I didn't have so many people "liking" and commenting on my status before! Well, you can join me if you want~ Remember, it is the amazing marketing skills they have, location and the funny chemicals in the food that makes you wanna eat more JUNK FOOD.

Alright, time to watch some good o' tv!! :)