Well, if you were to describe my feeling right now, it would be demoralised. I just tried to take a case (yes, finally after 3 years in nursing school) today and I sucked. My friends all did try out before and I guess they were pretty good. But I sucked. Really sucked. I've never been so embarrassed my whole life before! Especially when just passing ONE case! But I am thankful that the staff of ward 43 are just so patient and understanding....
Which means, I'm gonna stand up after this fall!!! I am prepared for tomorrow or the next few days! Bring it on man!!!
On the way back, I cheered myself up by thinking of the stuff I did before that sucked at first, but now I'm just so confident in it :)
1) The very recent one!!! Driving! Look how far and wide I drive now! I used to be soooooo noob! Right now I'm on my own!!
2) Working in Mandarin Oriental. First few days I was hated because I was so blur and lousy. But as the months went by, I was sent to serve more important functions or in charge of more important tables!
3) Can't think of anymore... Haha.
I hope I'll get better and better! Urgh, I just can't wait to be so competent! I want it to happen by mid-Jan! Yup, that will be my goal! Future Staff Nurse Maria Boey, YOU can do it!!!