If you were to include PRCP, this would be my 5th month in Ward 43. And somehow I have been assigned to my very own cubical alone. Of course I appreciate their great faith towards me, but I guess somehow I did let them down :/
In the midst of passing report, I just broke down. I don't know why. I just felt so lost. Crap, I just revealed my weakness to them. But seriously, am I still considered new? In terms of being able to do the job independently, am I too slow? Last night I could not stop thinking about the things I ought to have done. Well, it has been like that after a bad shift.
As the weeks and months are going by, I cannot give this "oh because I am still new" excuse anymore. Gotta mature up and get my ass moving! I still remember telling myself that by the end of June, I have to be competent already! Today is the 1st of June!
Watch out, here I come!