I will remember this quote my choir conductor Miss Yee would always say...
Somehow, I received feedback from my colleague about my work. And of course it wasn't too good. You know the moment you hear such sucky and ugly things(and sometimes if you wonder if you did anything wrong actually), your morale just sinks down and you can sit there and be in deep thoughts for hours. I had 2 choices on I could react to it:
#1 Get very angry and deny everything. Blame the person for not knowing why I did certain things/the reason why I behave like that. Find out exactly who was the one who said it about me and just do my best and clear my name. Give as many excuses.
#2 Listen and accept what she had said about me. Think what were the exact actions I did and in the future, how I can do it differently. Basically, just change myself.
It would be so so natural to go for #1. But yeah, everyone knows what is the right way. Honestly speaking, I have no idea why I was described in such a way. Because I really did my best in everything. Unless the thing is out of my knowledge or skills. A very huge "ego drop" for me. There are people who actually think negatively about me :( Nevermind, life still goes on.
Anyway I am 5 months into my work now. I still need time and a lil of getting used to. I know that I can do it.
As for now, I need to look at my past victories to boost myself up!
Oh wait, do I even have any past victories? :/