It all started this morning when this particular ex-EN newly turned SN turned up for work and I wonder what job should she be assigned to for the shift. I realised that she had been still doing junior work quite often despite already being promoted for a month. I thought that doing junior work does not do her justice and she ought to be given the chance to take on a Staff Nurse role. I mean, come to think of it, it's a learning opportunity right? She has to step out and learn new things! Not to just stick to being a junior always. I, ME, MARIA BOEY WAS GIVING HER A CHANCE TO LEARN. SEE HOW THOUGHTFUL I WAS?!?!
And she had to take it that I was "jealous" because she had the luxury to be the junior always and people like me don't have the chance to be a junior. She could say things like, "It's okay, you can assign me to do anything. I am alright with it. But someone might be jealous and insist that I need to take charge of patient. But I'm fine with anything.". Eventually she was assigned to be in-charge and she could say this to me: "You happy now? I am in-charge of bed ** to **. I know you are jealous of me cos I was always doing junior work. So you happy now?"
First thing first, I am not jealous if you are doing a junior job because even for myself, I don't feel comfortable being a junior. And what ever I mentioned about you getting a 'higher pay means you have more responsibility' was to make the situation less tense due to your "the-whole-damn-world-is-against-me" reaction. I really was being thoughtful and wanted you to have the opportunity to learn but I was so hurt yet angry by your response.
That's it. If you make any scarstic remarks or anything the next time, I am really gonna snap at you.
Yeah, I know you are damn good alright? What stupid Star Service Award 2011(please! i was partially the one who came up with this award name!). I don't care, seriously! This award was given by sister to ENCOURAGE people and reward them for their diligence and good, genuine service to patients. Not to show it off . Through this, I am really turned off by your attitude and mindset. Hello, the whole world isn't against you alright.
I don't know if I should help you next time as a fellow staff nurse. Should I correct you if you make mistakes? Can I give you advice and all that being 9 months more experienced than you? But one thing is for sure, I am seriously not gonna bother if you do junior or in-charge work. Cos you can't even appreciate my thoughtfulness.
Enough said, I am glad I ain't the same shift as you this week anymore!