I just ended my eventful afternoon shift and it happened to be the last afternoon shift before I go and study! Feeling quite sian as I was discovered to be neglient. Disclaimer: No assucations on me posting this up if anyone reads this because no one was harmed at all.
I TOTALLY admit that it is my fault. I had promised to be more responsible in the future. But the moment I met my manager, she started telling me about how such silly mistakes can destroy my "bright" future. The moment she told me that, my heart sank. I felt so scared. Then again, I have to bear the consequences and face them all!
I thought it's like giving me a beta form. I remember that I almost had one, for accidentally throwing plasticine at my teacher's head. I felt so disappointed at myself. I feared how a bad record could affect my future. Anyway, thank God I wasn't judged by my manager...
Maybe this is just a "last impression" memory before I disappear for 8 months. So when I'm back, I'll be a better employee.
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I have been attending meetings and stuff related to musical 2014 but am quite disappointed that there's audition coming up with songs that I am not strong in. So it's to my disavantage :/ Sigh... At this point of time, I don't really know if I wanna still join or not. I might be just assigned to join the choir. You know, as a performer, I kinda expect to sing in a small group or even sing solo. With a mic. Like I've come this far... But what if I do not get any significant role in the musical? All the late night rehearals, possibly sacrificing my results won't be worth it.
With such mindset, am I a diva? Am I asking for too much? Is it really fair to me?
Dear God, what should I do and how should I behave?