PINK!

Yesterday was Pink dot day, again. Have always wanted to go for the event... Next year, or sometime soon perhaps? But since I could not make it, I decided to wear pink to show my stand!

I just wanna quote this Bible verse....
Matthew 7:1-5
"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."

If you are talking about building proper and complete families, go deal with your own family first. Your own grandson does not even have a proper family to begin with. You know, I managed to "protect" myself because of the proper Christian moral values I have learned in church and from my parents.

Anyway, I am not position to say much, but this is just my opinion.

Results boohoo

Got back my sem 2 results, like finally... Got 2 B+ and 1 B, which gives me a GPA of 3.49(what?!?! A friggin 0.01 to be "safe" to apply for sponsorship). I do feel a little disappointed. I just feel that if things were to happen in another way, I would not get such good, but not good enough marks. Sigh.... Considering that I had lazy group members. Ok, I know it's not fair for me to judge them. But really. I guess, had I join other groups with elite students inside, I might have done better. And the place where I had my chemo center placement. I don't think I was graded fairly. As compared to others who went to other institutes....

Anyway there's nothing that I can do about it. I do feel inferior of course, as I am the poorest among my colleagues. Honestly I think my results are good. But what to do.... To be known and recognised, I have to be better than "good". Yeah. That's true in the dog-eat-dog world.

What comforts me is to see my manager happy about me and my results. Yesterday, she actually shared with me how much she has tried on her part to make the scholarship thing possible for me. She knows that it means so, so much to me. She is really God-sent :) Well, let's see as of now, what I can do to help me in my future. Seriously, all I ask for is free education. Nothing else. Not promotion, not awards blah blah blah.

But ultimately, I leave it to God to direct my path.

Visiting the dentist

Finally! After 3 years (yes I am guilty of it), I visited the dentist!

He first examined my teeth and said, "Honestly your oral hygiene is really bad, I need to do some intensive scaling for you. You really need to come back every 6 months."

And I didn't expect it to hurt to much! D: It hurt REAL BAD. But I was a good patient and tahan all the way...

So here's a before and after comparison of my teeth! Posting this to remind me to visit the dentist faithfully every 6 months before my teeth falls off. Even though I know wearing dentures is cute.

Inside Out

My walk with God has always been a process. I was, am and never will be perfect.

Let Him change me from the inside out.

Riding~

Yayyyy... Started my riding theory lesson 2 nights ago and it was pretty interesting!!! Hehehe. I am already conditioning my hand and leg coordination so that I will perform well during my practical lesson :P Having a driver's licence for 4 years, I must show that I am better than the others!!! And generally I am older so I must be more mature. Heh heh...

Hope I can go through EVERYTHING with only 1 attempt!!! :)

And I obtained my appointment with the dentist! Like finally after so many years! Oops!! Not gonna put on braces though, as advised by my mom :\

Glad that I am "finishing" my tasks!!

The World

I've come to realise that things just don't come on a silver platter. Sometimes you are really judged based on how smart you are. But someway, somehow, God places opportunities around things we won't expect. Let this picture be a reminder to me...

I'm just waiting for my final advanced diploma results which will probably come out on the 17th of this month. Good results or not? It's all in God's hands and I leave it all to Him to lead me to the path where He has planned for me. Truth be told, I am quite confused myself. I am being prompted that I can, then cannot, then can again, and cannot again. I hope all these will be settled soon :/

Yesterday, I finally, like finally signed up for riding classes!! I hope that all lessons and tests will go smoothly so that I can get my licence quickly and save a lot of travelling time and be more efficient and have more rest! :P And also enjoy the wind in my face when I get lonely. Hehehe... A year from now. I WILL ACHIEVE IT!

Went shopping the other day with SiShi and it felt sooooo darn good!!! One of my purchase was this floral leggins. Hehehe. I kinda like it :D I think this would be an awesome outfit if I were to get pregnant. WAHAHAHAHA!

Celebrated Jia Hui's birthday... Another great Saturday spent, not worrying about assignments, tests or exams! Wahahahaha....

I guess the working life is kinda for me(because I get my money income too!) but I need to move on to my next phase of education soon!

Why?

Sometimes I do wonder why I am doing this to myself. I guess people around me have a changed perception of love(more like lust)... But to me, it stays the same- wanting to spend the rest of my life and grow old with you.

I learned in service today that in my weakness, God's power comes in.

As I get weaker, I need You in my life more and more each day Lord..

Started Work

I have already started work and I feel so tired at the same time so bored and life is so meaningless when I am resting at home.

Thankfully, I have a shopping trip with Sishi tomorrow~ Can't wait! :D