Got back my sem 2 results, like finally... Got 2 B+ and 1 B, which gives me a GPA of 3.49(what?!?! A friggin 0.01 to be "safe" to apply for sponsorship). I do feel a little disappointed. I just feel that if things were to happen in another way, I would not get such good, but not good enough marks. Sigh.... Considering that I had lazy group members. Ok, I know it's not fair for me to judge them. But really. I guess, had I join other groups with elite students inside, I might have done better. And the place where I had my chemo center placement. I don't think I was graded fairly. As compared to others who went to other institutes....
Anyway there's nothing that I can do about it. I do feel inferior of course, as I am the poorest among my colleagues. Honestly I think my results are good. But what to do.... To be known and recognised, I have to be better than "good". Yeah. That's true in the dog-eat-dog world.
What comforts me is to see my manager happy about me and my results. Yesterday, she actually shared with me how much she has tried on her part to make the scholarship thing possible for me. She knows that it means so, so much to me. She is really God-sent :) Well, let's see as of now, what I can do to help me in my future. Seriously, all I ask for is free education. Nothing else. Not promotion, not awards blah blah blah.
But ultimately, I leave it to God to direct my path.