As the clock struck 12 on New Year's Eve, disappointment came upon me. Earlier this year, I had this strong sense of feeling that our relationship would go to a certain level. God even placed me in situations or used people to speak to me, that in 2015, something magical, all I've wanted these years will happen. Then again, I can probably think that all these is just a figment of my imagination.
I even laughed to myself, how ironic, that I spent the last few hours of 2015 near your house. All you could say to me that you were "not free". I was yearning to receive a New Year's message from you even. The last time we met, you didn't even bother to update me about your life, or even just sit by me, hoping that we could enjoy each other's company. I had it. I had enough of pursuing you.
In 2016, I decided to be stronger. I will no longer give in, or be swayed by your attitude or actions. No "episodes" of us will make me feel that there is still hope. It's time for me to move on. Seriously, I should really invest my time in people who will really love me genuinely. I hope to stop having you inside my dreams.
I must be strong. My life can still be awesome without you.
God.... Help me. I'm confused. Upset. Heartbroken... :(