Hello, June

It has been a year since...
1) We said our goodbyes
2) I finished up my stressful dissertation
3) I embarked my work life after being on hiatus for 20 months

Speaking of being on hiatus, I AM SO DAMN SORRY for missing for soooooo long :( I guess I was too caught up on work and other social media platforms. Gosh. I really feel I'm wasting my time scrolling through fb and ig at times. But then, I just can't help it. Hope someway somehow I can kick the habit.

I remember I used to think about my thoughts, blog it down, post nice photos on my blog for Malcolm to read hahaha. Read a book even, create music and do way many more things. Now, I just spend my off days sleeping and watching tv -_- Well, I wanted to do some exercise today actually or even go out but I have work work work to do at home zzzzz.

Anyway, since I've been back at work, a part of my potential has been maximised. And also, I have been abused and "bullied" by several individuals at work. Like bosses just not liking me and people using my work to claim credit for themselves. Disgusting! I'm glad I've been genuine friendships beforehand. Hope they can watch out for me to a certain extent. But anyways, HECK MAN. They wanna have fame and glory let them have it. I'm not exactly very interested anyway. I just wanna go back to 43 and look at my onco patients and do well in my work.

Oh just wanted to mention that since I came back to work, I felt that I have been very angry and negative in work and maybe even in everything. Then, since Feb 2018, I have been through SFTH3, We Care Programme, SLP and chruch retreat. Different contents but all felt the same- to make me happy and find my purpose once again. So I guess the first half of 2018 is like a rejuvenating period for me, to gear up for the rest of my life! :) I'm not really sure what is in stored but here I go!~

Hope I will come back to blog more often!

Good Bye 2017, Hello 2018

Gosh, once again it has been AGES since I blogged. I guess through time blogging isn't really part of my life style anymore. But I need to! So that I can look back at my life!! Heh... The new year is here... Let's have a review of significant events in 2017.

1) I attained first class honours for my degree course!

I really didn't expect to attain a first class honours as I knew that my level of intelligence was not of THAT level. But I guess God is good and faithful always. He has granted me wisdom and favour. Though I can't see any fruits now (because no one gives no shit that I got first class), I'm sure someway, somehow it will be noticed. Most importantly, I have learnt the MOST out of my course.

Though, after coming back to work I feel tired. Thus, I have not been so productive in my academic work. Heh... Maria Boey, please buck up in 2018 :)

2) I went through my first break up

It was a pretty complicated relationship to begin with. Like, the break up wasn't abrupt but gradual. When we bade goodbye for the last time, I still thought I will see him. But I guess that was the last time I will see him in forever. I believe time will heal and I will move on. Still, I know that things happen for a reason. During my next life perhaps? I hope I still can meet with him...

3) Returned back to work- and in another ward

Felt like I had to start all over again in terms of building relationships with my colleagues. And I am happy to say that I'm doing well so far :) Still, I don't really like the nature of the patients. Recently, I had a handful of oncology patients and I felt so happy to nurse them :) There were 1 million things to settle for them but I was willing to do everything! I'm still in the midst of trying to find back my passion. Well, if I can't, I think I would really need to ask for a transfer...

I also had a really wonder Public Forum. I am thankful for the experience gained. Though, I know now that I have issues working with certain people and all that. But guess what, I AM AWESOME AND I SUCCESSFULLY ORGANISED THIS FORUM! Will definitely have to credit friends and colleagues who helped me so much along the way :)

4) I bought my biggest purchase yet :)

TOP is in August 2020. I can't wait!!

Okay.. My resolutions and wishes for 2018...

1) Get my freaking COPE running successfully- it's a tough nut esp when the ward is busy 99% of the time :(

2) Get my academic stuff done! Posters, articles, presentations!!! Argh!!

3) To be genuinely happy at work

4) Move on and find my happiness

5) Lose weight (this is by default hehe)

6) Have a singing recital in Nov/Dec. I'm still in the thinking/planning phase... Hope it happens!!

7) Malcolm's wedding perhaps?

8) Write more songs and be more musically inclined.. But with the work I have, I don't know how much I can do. But I'll try!! :)

9) Possibly change my bike... I'm currently looking at this!

 IT'S SO NICE RIGHTTTTTT.