Love

It's really funny how I long to be in musicals with a role that requires me to fall in love. But too bad, I have yet to have a chance, unless you want to consider "Summer Nights" that I did with Fadzly. But to me it's not counted cos the song is abit cheesy. Hahaha.

Without "gambling" your heart away, acting in love is the best way to feel love. Really. Okay I know I'm a loser, haha. Cos I have never experienced such love before. What's more, I can sing it in a song, have a really romantic backdrop, be really pretty and hold those hands. You know, how we imagine love is VERY different from reality.

During rehearsal today, I was totally mesmerized when they did "Endless Love". But if I was given a chance, I think I would act and respond way better than her. HAHAHA! Not saying that she is lousy or what but I can totally feel it man. It's like inside I've been dying to fall in love.

I don't think it's wrong to fall in love. Everyone deserves it. Will it happen to me? God knows. And I leave it all to Him.

At the meantime, I can still dream to play a role that can fall in love in a musical one day...

"Two hearts that beat as one, our lives has just begun..."

Happy Weekend!

More like a happy Saturday! Heh.. So Sidney came over to LifeUnited! Well, I might have overreacted the moment he stepped into the room. Okay, it's not because I have a girly crush(like other typical girls~) on him on whatever. But I just could not believe my eyes! Someone like me, would have the chance to share the stage with someone so big making music for God! It really shows how God can still use this small church to do His works!

Love the music team :)))

Some other people awesome people to share :)

Roy and Elson! I'm really looking forward to the greater LifeUnited adventures with them!!!!

And dear KerYuan, who has changed so much!! Happy to see her really connected to God and serving so actively in the house of God!!!

I can't wait for our 1 year Anniversary. There's definitely so much to look back to. Ultimately, God is amazing. With so little we have, we are still able to run a church! I'm REALLY excited of what's ahead! WOOHOOO!!

November

Oh my goodness!! 2 more months before the year ends! Time flies man, time flies... There's so much to reflect about. Basically I would wanna share 3 aspects of my life that occurred this year!

1) Moving to LifeUnited.

So, last Saturday was already the 38th service (yes, we treasure every single service) since 12 February. I remember in January that I was seriously in a dilemma if I should go or not. And I (anyhow) made that decision to be part of this new church! I can proudly say that it was a decision that I did not regret! It was painful letting go of so many things back there. But sometimes you just gotta let go in order to grab something even better. The main takeaway that I have learnt during the services is that I am graced to be where I am right now. I need not do any extravagant to earn His love for me because God has already loved me and all I need is to be thankful.

2) My career in KKH.

I am very happy to be where I am right now! Even though working as a new staff had many ups and downs, I am still here, alive! I am very thankful for the favour upon me. Well, I hope the favour is because of my attitude and how well I am able to work. I am not perfect though. I still make mistakes. I still struggle with the carelessness in me. But that's okay. Everyday when I step into the ward, I learn something new about work and myself.

3) Having 5 major performances in 2011.

Everyone knows that I would give up anything just to perform :) 'Our Tampines Story', 'Great World Family Fun', National day shows for Woodlands and Tampines have all given me so much experience and exposure on acting/singing. And I owe it all to Uncle Terrence! It's like why on Earth he would choose me. My acting is seriously bad. I have no background in acting. But he just never gives up on me. Even for 'Homecoming' in December, he just believes that I can play such a complicated role(well, to me it's really complicated). And I never wanna let him down. Over the past few days, I've been practicing really hard on the bitchy role. I hope I can show it good for tomorrow's rehearsal!!

Will there be more next year? I don't know. But I am already awed by all the opportunities given to me this year :)

Yeah, so that's my 2011 for you. The thing I'm looking forward to before 2012 is my year-end bonus. WAHAHAHAHAHHA! Jeez! I am sooooo money minded!

Parents Appreciation & other random thingys

On Sunday, the youths in LifeUnited held an event to simply appreciate our parents. So, my Dad came along!

One word I can describe that day: "Divine". It was really divine and God-planned.

Watching the video of my best friend really makes me miss her a lot :( Anticipating her return on 14 Dec!!

Urgh, going for vocal training, then coming home to catch some sleep before doing my night shift. And then, going to send Mom off to Germany! Sigh, she has such a good life!

Ok, which me luck! Hope she won't scold me for not being able to hit the notes! :/

Death

I got to know a bit more about death through real experiences the past few days. I guess when it comes to faith, what you believe is what you will get. I can have people telling me that some black white spirit is bringing them "downstairs" and others saying that they see the light and Jesus. Either way, it just feels so "magical" but so true!!

First of all with all due respect, may my patients rest in peace. I'm glad that they are no longer suffering in pain. I just want to share my insights on death.

On the day before her death, I could tell that she wasn't ready for it. She just tried to be as awake as ever, asking me to slap her legs, shake her and talk to her. It is just so hard to bring it across to someone who is dying. She was very much in distress, and I told her to just be calm, close her eyes and sleep. She took it that I wanted her to go. Well, which was true but never in a bad way.

That kept me thinking... On my death bed, will I be willing to let everything go? The moment I stop breathing, where will my soul be? What will I see? According to my faith, I will go to heaven(and I thank God that I'm graced to go there). Yes, but from then on, what will happen? And since I won't have a physical brain, will I be able to think things, remember all the incidences that happened in life?

I guess I will never know unless I experience it myself. Unfortunately when it happens, I would not be able to blog it out here. Ha!!

Long Time No Update!

So I haven been updating due to the hectic schedule I'm having, but I'm glad that the week is going to be over! Phew!! Okay, so last Friday, I went to KKH's D&D @ Fairmount Hotel!! I was really a big ballroom and I had so much fun. The food was zzzzz though. The theme was "When I grow up, I wanna be....." And I tried to dress up like a rock star! Which I thought it kinda failed.

With the sweet Lina! :) She's one lucky girl cos she won 4th prize in the grand lucky draw! :)

Love the colour contrast in the photo! :)

Ward 43 babes~

And a photo with Cheryl!!

I kinda participated actively in the games, but got humiliated by the stupid emcee :( I thought I could win some prize so I sang through the mic. But in the end he was like, "Too bad I'm deaf" Ahhhh, crap. So I didn't win anything!

On Saturday, I attended Barry's 21st Birthday party!! I was one of the more happening ones I've attended! Heheh.

I love this photo with darling SiShi!

Clique!!

The whole bunch of usssss!

The party ended at 3am and I purposely stayed up and tried to sleep at 7am so that I will sleep the whole on Sunday for my night shift because I was going to USS the next day!!! WAHHOOOO!

Okay, I know it's abit stupid to go to USS on my post-night but I really had no choice and still, I managed to enjoy the rides! Just that I was quite tired and grumpy!

We actually queued up to take a photo with Charlie Chaplin!! Hehe, I look horrible in this photo. This was taken just for my Dad!!! :)

Yup, and I've been having rehearsals and vocal trainings for the NYP musical!! Woohoo! I'm really excited man! THE DATE is drawing nearer! Really man, doing shows is my kind of life. I may not be good yet but I will learn from the experiences I'm having!! Lalala dum dee dum! I hope I can invite every single person I know to watch me! :D It's just my way of impressing people! At least, it's a time where I can feel good about myself!!

Which means, I can't wait for the rehearsal tomorrow! WOOHOOO!!!

How I celebrated Life

Yay Happy Birthday to me blah blah blah. This year, I made it really simple and low profile(sorry, I tried my very best) And I WON Malcolm's challenge. A handful of people wished me on facebook despite not putting the date on my profile!! Okay, please ignore me. Malcolm and I always come up with funny things to compare against each other.

Spent time with clique!! :) Had awesome lunch at Watami!!

My beloved SiShi & I :)

The walk down Orchard road!!

Pretending to be tourists!! Hehe.

Totally can't wait to go to USS with them!! :D 4 more days!! Really excited!!

Then went out with Theresa & Marcus to have our yearly celebration. 10 years later, I'm gonna do a compilation of photos that we celebrated over the pass few years. Yeah, how nice :)

Also visited MBS Robinsons to take a look at Wicked's costumes!! Pretty!!!

Theresa is soooo pretty!

Simple celebrations, simple, but they touched my heart.

I was really emotional last night. After a usual day of work, I went for rehearsals and they had to call it off. I was looking forward to it the whole week! Yeah, kinda! Whose fault is it? I don't know. I really didn't know who to be upset to be with... Myself? Them? The rest of the cast? If this continues, I will get so sick and tired of just being around to be blamed, scolded for the things that I am very committed to & have passion for. I cannot take it. I really can't. Why I am only telling myself that the sacrifices will be worth it? I just hope that whatever happened would not affect our friendship. Well, maybe I wasn't significant to you at all. I don't know how to go on from here...

And that's how my life is like now being 21...