Ok. So it has been formally announced that I will be deployed to another ward for a span of 3 long months! Truth be told, I have been thinking and even dreaming about it. When the management had initial ideas to this cross-training program, I thought it would be great if I were to be the one going over.
Since I started work, I have always been working in ward 43. I thought I was too spoilt and sheltered by my manager and seniors. And prolly I have been too over familiar with my colleagues. So, going over would proof myself what I am really made up of.
And now that this got real, I got abit emo about it. It's like stepping out of my comfort zone. How will my new colleagues see me? If I am there to change the ward culture, will they hate me? Will the gang up against me? Who can protect me? God, help me be the best staff that I can be... Help me be a positive influence. Heh, it's like zooming back to the past, constantly asking God to help me in my work when I was a new staff.
I guess the most painful part is to be seperated with the person/people I love :( But I need to overcome it! Hiak hiak Maria you can do it!!!
Today, for the first time working as a staff nurse for 3plus years, a patient asked me to pray for her. I was kinda disappointed at myself because I didn't. Sigh... I know in church pastor has been sharing and challenging us to pray for the sick and all. I always wanted such an opportunity and it finally came. But..... I didn't have the courage to do so. I won't know what to say. All I know is.... I had shared the love of God through my sincere actions. I hope I did.
Haha, I guess one thing I miss also would be my patients. And I guess, hopefully some of them will ask about me and miss me too!
Regardless of anything, I'm always leaving it to God! :)