I don't really know how much I affect you. But you affected me so badly. I can't help but to think over our conversation that night. I really wanna know how you are feeling right now(well, you posted something so emotional online right after our conversation). At the same time, it seems that you always think that I am in the wrong. Are you entirely correct all the time? Is it wrong to react differently from you in certain situations?
At times like this, I like to do things to distract myself. I want to show to you that I am not affected a little bit at all. But when I stop, that dull feeling keeps coming to me.
I even dreamed of you in my nap. The scenario in the nap was not really that appropriate, as it was the feeling of a couple fighting, and getting back together. Do I love you that much? Argh. Ok, stop thinking about it! I cannot help but to feel so much burden.
I hope all these will be over soon. This is one reason why I don't really want to work with you. I fear that it will destroy our friendship. I just want to be the simple ME, doing superficial stuff, not being responsible over things, with no room for you to comment on me. Yet at the same time, I enjoyed the moments we did well as a team and the time spent with each other...
Talk to me, please.